dear heart, i'm sorry u've been hurt lately.. again n again..i can actually prevent u of being hurt again, but i learn to forgive again. yes, for the sake of God, i keep hurting myself n love u again.

frankly, eventhough my love have been decrease, i am not the kind of girl who will forget so easily. unless i know if i cant accept that behaviour during marriage. hence, i choose to let u go. but as wat a saying says
"he loves u or not, ask ur heart, not ur ears.
he loves u or not, ask ur tears, dont ask ur smile". 

i know i cant guarantee u will change totally n wont get hurt again, but i just hope u will appreciate the chance i gave u. even though it's not, i done wat i done. i have no more regrets on my decision. so i hope u guys, as friends will support me =) 

ok, lets see, i haven update about my father's day yet XD me n my siblings just bought a watch, shirts for dad ^^ n i make a DIY first chinese card for dad, translated by my bf ^^ n i took leave for celebrate with my family =) but seems like i the one who celebrate also bcoz go mydin just shopping for myself also =P hehe. 

n guess wat, i bought my first swimming suit X) not very sexy la, but for me sexy also @@ i really dont dare wear bikini man... haha! tat day i wore at his house swimming pool, he kena stunt by me =P hehe.

ok, gtg, haze now. drink more h2o!

finally i decided to break up. is really very tiring to force urself to continue for the sake of love.. after all, we keep argue, blame on each other, no mutual understanding, how can we live until old? ppl say argue is good, as u more understanding and love each other. but not for me anymore. so disappointed n heart broken only..

last time, my first bday with u, my fren offer to fetch u to see me.. but u just say u dont know... 

when i give suprise come n find u, u some more say dont want to go out n meet me..

i plan outing with ur fren, but u just scold me why didnt tell u first.. so many stuff i do for u, u dont appreciate but just know to scold back me. when i get jealous n cry, u also scold me back instead.everytime i explain, i discuss, u just will say back me.. what's the point of discussing then?? to get all this heart ache?

seriously, i'm tired to protect this relationship. u convince me u will change, write lovey dovey stuff will always by myside.. did u? i dont find other guy, is other guy who cares for me just ask me how am i. u blame me to talk wit him.. but dont u think is u the one nt accompany me?

 perhaps, u can put all the blame on me now because i dont love u enough.

hmm.. lazy to write actually XD lets see.. i shut up n move on, literally i just enjoy my life =)  previously been argue alot with my bf. like when i forget bring my purse, IC, etc, he scolded me ~.~ i didnt do it on purpose, no need to scold me so hurt ma. haih. things tat i do well, do for him, didnt get his compliment or appreciation is alright, but when only the bad side being judge instead, sometimes its annoying. is nt like i dont sincere, but somehow also will feel something isnt it? =/ nvm, love and human is nvr perfect. get used to it.

last sunday, went to bukit cahaya with him, n his colleagues. the last time i went there is after spm trip with secondary friends. rent a bicycle.. super expensive lo. 1 hour = RM10.. rent 2 hours.. my bf just jog. but i cycle also very tired, he manage to run all the way also ~.~ geng. whole body like bathing d XD

didnt manage to see animals T.T me n him was kinda like lost XD cant find the animal place. huhu. next time rent a bike together.. i wan see animals!! T^T

then went back n bath, then go to SS15, Loud Speaker for karaoke..my shoes de ribbon fell off.. LOL.. then i keep bising him buy glu for me XP then he say nobody see my shoe -.- fine. huhu. Throughout the karaoke, its like having JJ Lin's concert.. almost 70% is his song only -.- LMAO.. bcz there's one girl choose sooo many his song.. hahaha.. until the guys also complain XD

then went to play badminton for 1 hour+ . very tiring n keep sweating but i love exercise ^^ i dunno why tat time play till so blur.. he pass me the ball to service, but i go pass back to opponent =P hahah.. after tat went to swimming at night for another 1hour ~.~ then went to eat supper at 11pm+ @@ so tired.. but very nice moment =) n happy day to meet new bunch of frens X) tat whole day was fully occupied by exercise @.@

actually we both argue also gt wrong.. but i just wan u to know, there's no fire without a spark. i hope u understand and und me as well. watever it is, we will get through it =) 

then last thursday, he surprise came to my house.. in which coincidently my parents at home again XD omg. twice already he came, twice also kena XD seems like he give surprise my parents more than surprise me XD haha. but gud also, u cant see my messy hair =P then went to IOI watch Epic movie ^^ so nice n funny ^^ suddenly i love snails XD hahah. eww.. i know right XD

ok la. watch my kitten anime. bb ^^