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Joyce Lim



love
Wednesday, December 28, 2011




love.. sometimes make me so confused.. so worry n scare.. no confident how our future wil be.. mayb due to past scar? of course i trust u, i always serious is love.. but really scare to hurt all over again.. breaking up is like the whole world had blackout..

i still rmb the feeling, how i cried and cant slp every night, half way sleeping then wakeup every hour bcoz heart too pain.. nightmares.. no appetite to eat.. to talk.. force a smile.. hopeless to live.. the feeling is awful.. i duwan tat to happen again.. im too weak to handle again.. without my fren help, i guess i wil........

but i risking myself to in love again... am i stupid? naive? desperate? i follow my feelings.. but now i try to bring my brain along so wont be so hurt.. trying to control my unconditional love for u.. but the more i control myself, the more i scare of losing u..

the more i want u, the more i scare how to survive without u. trying to appreciate u everyday bcoz we dunno wats gonna happen tmw.. but wat if u leave tis earth earlier? wat am i suppose to do?

i'm weak.. no confident.. perhaps the trauma stil there.. but still, i wil stil loving u.

i'm lucky to meet Laang Shian Hoong. we both had feelings during petroscience trip. which is quite hard for both ppl to love each other on first place.. which is why i feel lucky, n appreciate to have u more =) lucky to be ur first crush n first love, dun worry, i wil love u like never love or hurt b4. i wil make our story a beauty n eternal love.

writtern @1:35 AM

christmas
Monday, December 26, 2011




he is my doctor =) 'medicine' that he give, next year after stpm going to NS.. cant cal n sms at there T^T so he done tis for me T^T each day open one.. but my hand so itchy to open DX

i love him, him him and him ^^


christmas eve went to sunway with my sis fren, sis n him~ we exchange our birthday gifts.. nt sure next year dunno can meet onot.. T.T

1314= his bday 1/1 and my bday 3/4 ^^ 520=iloveyou!

i bought tis ^^necklace ring^^ nice! sumore jus rm 7 for both. cheap~~

his present ^^his bday on 1st January ^^ so special~ but so pity sometimes ppl jus wish him happy new year, nt happy birthday XD but at least the whole world 'countdown' for his bday XP feel damn guilty cant accompany him for first bday celebration.. going Icity with my sis n her frens countdownT.T

at least i make card for him to openXD

at sunway, we went to sing k X) he sing like a mosquito @.@ hehe. then we rushed to tapao mcdonald n bring to cinema eat XD watched alvin n the chipmunk. so disappointed! the trailer looks so nice n funny, but for me is quite boring DX 1st n 2nd wan alot better ~.~

then we jus walk n chat until 5pm.. then i accompany him to bus stop to go back T.T he help me hold my bag.. then when the bus came, he almost enter the bus tat time suddenly cal me STUPID PIG, ur bag! LOL... i forgotten XD but he cal me like tat..! hmph! he also la, holding also dint realize ~.~

but once he enter the bus ed, i quickly turn away.. no courage to watch him go.. haihhhhhhhhhhh.. 1 year only maaa....only =.= so suffer!!

then i go find my sis.. waa.. i at sunway from 10am to 11pm.. OMG.. damn tiring ~.~

then the next day go summit.. cant feel my leg ~.~


hoho, my nail~ haven cut for 1month+


my stupid insect collection..== yucks! i need 18 more insects ~.~

last week of holiday! die.. stil gt folio n experiment haven done! math also!. die die die ~.~

writtern @7:26 PM

hmm?
Wednesday, December 21, 2011




u dont hurt me, i never hurt u. i care for frens feeling, i trying my best not to offend anyone bcoz i know words sometimes are sharper than knife.. but did u?

it is my problem.. but why is like for first time, my issue seems like so matter for u? mayb u dun realize, but in a way, it do hurts me as a fren.. were u that caring?? i doubt that.. few incidents really hurts n leave deep scar! if u do care, y dint u ever ask me how am i when i break up previously? u dint ask anything at all. but now, i'm in a relationship seems like bothering u.. i dunno.. maybe my instinct wrong.. haihhh

anyway today is my childhood fren birthday! happy birthday to her X) n today also is dong zhi festival!! ytd talk with him, n i dunno what the festival call ~.~ but i know the food is cal 'tang yuan' ^^ so i say 'tang yuan kuai le' XD then he say 'lao po kuai le' XD LOL

skol day getting nearer.. which means we cant talk much anymore =( T^T

need do tang yuan le~ yummy!!! bb ~

writtern @9:59 PM

holiday
Monday, December 19, 2011




these holidays sucks ~.~ never even mention whether i miss school onot.. alone again at class whole day.. i dun even really have holiday.. ya, perhaps i'm a slacker ~.~ but my 1+ month holiday, i jus keep doing my homework! never ending homework eventho is holiday.. damn sucks! how to enjoy T.T

i already done my 7insects experiment.. n i left wit 18 more insects to collect.. wth.. plants ed collected, jus haven print the info.. folio is on the way.. damn ecology folio.. 4 ppl in a group n i doing it all by myself.. haih..... stress!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

math? i done past years questions, but text book i dint touch.. my dear Pn selva sure wil disappointed =( my math 2? i sure wiil complete her work lo.. i so scare her X.X

but really stress.. my result sucks like hell.. now struggling with experiment, folio n homework, dun even have time to do revision.. mayb i jus not studying type ~.~ i study max 3hours only.. i duno why some of my friends so eager to study, to gain more knowledge, sad when nothing to study, but me, lazying around n think is not my business to study.. so pathetic me T^T

but at least, i gt my 'wolf' accompany me next year.. knowing u care about me, i wil feel strong to go school study =) haih.. miss him so much.. what i do to make u here.. =( burn ur puchong physic class wil do :D mwahahah

now only i realize how lucky am i in high school.. miss my 7chinese gang =( miss our koko time especially.. stay back every evening for paint class or sports is the best memory T^T miss them so much.. i hate ALONE... haih.. gambateh ba ~

writtern @10:07 PM

my eyes~
Sunday, December 11, 2011




recently my eyes out of nowhere grow pimple in my eyes ~.~ damn pain a.. n swallon sumore.. until now haven fully heal


so ugly~~

yierrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr~~


dint thought to see doctor, bcoz jus a small thing n duwan waste my dad money.. plus scare if need apply cream medicine in my eyes!! hate doctor... after 1week + haven recover, i told my mom, mana tau she go tel my dad == immediately he brought me go see doc T^T haih... so expensive.. really caring my daddy =)


i saw tis quote at my fren's room... i hate ppl who can so easily stop loving a person especially guys!!! selfish...! i know love cant be force, but a damn gud fren of mine, bcoz of a selfish act of his, breaks her heart to pieces...! where is all the promises vanish? where is ur forever? if is so easy to fall in n out of love, then 'marriage' word shouldn't exist to tie both together... serious dun understand...

if u r matured enuf, please love her more than she love u.. tat is wat a gentleman is.. love isn't complicated, human it is... why when u first couple can be so lovey dovey, but as the time passes, u change?? we dont hurt bcoz human change, we hurt bcoz of wat u used to be... hope my dear fren recover.. it takes time...


my neighbour cat missing!!! T^T i think the owner bring to other place.. so sad!!!!!!!!!!! almost 3 weeks le T.T damn miss DX

today is Jeniffer birthday ^^ hope she have a blast~ ^^

today he back from malacca with his family ^^ yay~~!!!!!! miss him so much T^T ytd he gave his fb password to me, to be honest of everything.. i look his privacy n indeed i get very hurt n jealous =( but to think about his pass, is jus sweet talk, not ask for couple or anything.. compare to mine even more hurt him tho... but ya.. he said the past is not important anymore, jus the present =)

i understand now n learn to be more open minded.. bear in mind, nobody is perfect ^^ thanks for always stay by myside ^^

thanks to Emelia, she always give me many useful advises! my saver X)

writtern @11:40 PM