useless....

Friday, April 19, 2013

why i am such a useless pathetic human... 2 years................. one on one with teacher... sacrifice all my fucking time, sleep n entertainment just to do chemistry notes n homeworks... paste fugly mindmaps on my bed.... is just a total waste n a piece of SHIT... WHY I AM SUCH A FAILURE?????????? better no need study AT ALL if i get such grade!! for wat??????????? to get this shit grade??? fucking shame... fucking disgrace of myself...... fucking useless!!! feel like dying....... why i wanna appeal to recheck?? shit me........

dear god... why u no answer my prayers... i dont wish much.. just a D only...why u no help me.... why u leave me with tat bloody low grade tat i have to face? how am i going to tell my dad.... how am i going to break his heart again...

everyone say is ok, i try my best, there is nothing to regret.. yes.. is true but nobody will understand and feel wat i feel... disappointed.... is wat i can say....... after everything i gave...... n i just get this kind of result...before getting my appeal result, dreamt of my result again.. sad n heartache until i wake up.. so hurt...

just finish talk with laogong.. cried so much... thanks for comfort me.. i know result is nt important, only the hardwork u did.. but sometimes, isnt it unfair when u try so much, work so much, but in the end u dint get anything? hopefully my hardwork is useful when it comes to working life.. =(

then i inform my teachers.. she called n comfort me.. n i cry again ~.~ n she also cried with me.LOL feel super guilty sia. but women is tat weak i think =P really thanks alot for my teachers console.. telling me is ok n have faith on me.. telling me God just delay my hardwork.. i hope He do... just let me enter uni is more than everything for me.

among all exam.. only stpm is the most suckish result i ever get =.= first, upsr, pmr, spm only consists of A & B... even though spm i also quite disappointed but at least my sejarah from D become A+. at least my hardwork pay off.. but stpm?? only get B.. somemore failed chemistry.. wat the? haih... watever it is, jus have to shut up n move on...

laogong, tomorrow u better hug me tightly or i kick ur butt fly sky =P thank u =)

writtern @11:29 PM

Lalala~

Monday, April 15, 2013

That day my Silver kitty sick d :'( he keep cry and cry and cry. Then I keep sayang and sayang. Finally he vomit. Lol. Haha. His fur keep drop :'( then I pick grass for him eat :-D illegal doctor :-P hehe. One day later he ok d :-D yay!! Thank god! Really worry die me. Even though just few months, I love my cats <3

Anyway, I finally know how to swim XD finally not afraid. Mwahaha.

writtern @6:43 AM

no more teenagers T.T

Monday, April 8, 2013

i cant accept.. I AM NO LONGER A TEENAGER T.T growing up is no fun at all..feel so so old ~.~ LOL. saddd..

last week is my birthday ^^ me, jasmin, jasmine, steven n their sister went to times square for shopping.. i never once thought they were going to celebrate for me.. @.@ went to petaling street at first.. KONONNYA Jasmin pretended boss called to take some thing from a florist shop.. i really believe leh..

then the boss gave her a bouquet of flower. i was surprise that the boss so good de. then i laugh at her bcoz she going to take the flower around in shopping mall later XP

then went to Mini cupcake house. they wanna do DIY cupcake.. i didnt do bcoz i still full that time. so cute but abit disgusting bcoz the cream put till alot XD after they completed, suddenly they sang happy birthday to me ~.~ damn super touched! then jasmin gave me the flower..actually is she bought for me.. wat a BIG lie T^T n ended up is i carrying the flower walking around. so embarrassed! but really really sweet of her. thanks alot!!! love u~! u took my first time of gave me flower XP love u my 13 years bestie!! ^^

taadaa~ their DIY cupcake ^^ love it! really warm~

me n jasmin at times square ^^ i watched The Croods twice.. haha. but very nice n touching movie =)

on my real birthday,3/4/13, Yi Xuan celebrate my bday ^^ really appreciate she take off day n planned so much for my birthday.. really nice of her! went to puchong eat dimsum.. she keep call so much food ~.~so full. this is the sweetest dimsum i ever have ^^

me n mangkuk ^^

went to setiawalk cinema, watch G.I.Joe retaliation. Jen slept twice inside XD only awake when gt leng zai come out XD haha. while i blur blur dunno which ppl is good or bad =P really super boring for us XD maybe bcoz we dun like fighting show. only me n her the only female inside. hahaha..

then went to her Yamagoya shop, her colleague prepare the deco for us ^^ n sang happy birthday song to me T.T so touched! even just strangers, just really appreciate what they did^^

me n mangkuk ^^ she did soooo much things for me.. diy card with essay, treat me eat, drive all the way to my house, n her cake present.. thanks alot!! love u!!

then at evening went to jogging... then feel like wanna go home.. yuan lai is Huey Leen came my house XD she gave me cake too XD so sweet ^^ n gave me a yellow shirt ^^ thanks a lot!! so nice! love u too!!

the next day went to work at office.. boss as usual call me to make a coffee... went to kitchen i saw a cake placed there o.O then i ask boss's wife whose cake is that? then she say is for customer one.feel suspicious of course but i saw many candles.. impossible is me ma.. i should have 2 candles only for 20th bday...

then boss called me go infront.. gt a small cupcake there. feel funny bcoz so many ppl but so small cupcake XD but still very happy n blessed they still wish n sang bday song for me. then went inside n continue my work... then boss called me go infront again. now only is the actual cake ~.~ LOL. so stupid. really prank dao 99.. then have to take out the candle using mouth, boss, boss's wife n jasmin pushed my face onto the cake!! so dirty d my face T.T

but really thanks them a lot!!!! hehe ^^

my boy just countdown to my birthday n sing for me. until ytd only went celebrate with him. the birthday cake he bought ^^

me n boyboy ^^ this is the shirt huey leen gave me ^^

gong gave me a pink cat paper bag, a angry bird diy card (cute bcoz the mouth can move de =P) n aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa............. the ever last thing that will come across my mind to buy present for a LOVER. he bought me a TABUNG... ya.. the one u save ur money at.. == LOL.. i keep complain n refuse to have tat present XD so bad but really ma..give me a MONEY TUBE means call me keep money jiek.. zha dao T.T hmph. next time i give u A ENCICLOPEDIA only know.. hehe.thanks alot too dear. love u damn much ^^

writtern @6:11 AM