friends~

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

learn from ytd, live for today, hope for tomorrow ^^ is ok if we do mistake, everyone is nt perfect ryte?but as long as we learn from the past n mistake wil make our life more better ;D i promise u, we together change to better k^^

ytd went to sunway with form 6 gang, jen, huey leen, twins, ann, alicia n fiona ^^ very fun to meet u guys! i dunno why, but seriously feel so warm n like a family with them ^^

actually the day b4 got abit fight with jen XD but i decided nt to ruin our first time outing together with the rest. so i jus ok back with her, but i see her very cool when we meet.. like duwan to choi me T.T but i dunno why i read her blog jus now she say i the one who care less about her XD haha XD mayb i dint ask her much thing bcoz i try to control myself nt to be so busybody like aunty~.~ huhu

but then me, jen n leen sing karaoke release our stress, scream n sing many songs with feelings jus like inside the lyric XP the others go watch movie, The Thing. then as time pass by, we jus talk n laugh like normal ^^ eventho at first gt abit shyshy XD

n then i realise i get back like a aunty when talk with jen XP i stil care for her ~.~ XD chin yi xuan, i wil always care for u no matter wat, so any problem rmb to call HAM DAN CHIU YAN n i wil fly to u xD

n im so so so sry i dint ask u why u wan to smoke T^T i seriously stupid!!!!!! i dint ask for ur explaination also.. perhaps i jus too emo tat time due to my pass relationship... really sorry..

nice cushion XP

anyway, ur apology, i from the very early already forgive u. i dun even need u to say sorry to me, but as long as u stil talk to me, is more than i wish ^^ i cant imagine without u or be a stranger with u! if at skol i cant be crazy n at badminton court cant play with u, i think tat wil make me crazy instead ~.~

i am selfish too.. i dunno why when jen told me she suddenly bu seh de alicia, or others, i feel abit jealous ~.~ i not lesbian ryte??! haha XD i have to admit, i have a best friend since im standart 1 til now.. but i realize tat as long is best fren with u all, my love is the same..

so sry if i hurt u by saying u nt mature ~.~ paiseh T^T i really appreciate u to always accompany me n make me happy when im sad ^^ mayb u dunno tat i know ;D but seriously THANK YOU. so, pls dun cry bcoz of me or i wil feel guilty T^T next time anything, promise to tell me straight!no more secrets!!!!!!!!!

i feel kinda sad when u sms hueyleen but dint sms me at sunway.. n also u both secretly sms when at Popeye.. but again, i try to control my aunty-ness XD n u told ann n leen u go airport first also i dint know anything ~.~!! T^T

u dint make me annoying, jus i make u annoying la~ u always hear my boring stories n problems.. thanks!! i never leave u alone, i stil need u to be my hamdanchiuyan XD

i never ever once wanna leave u darling ^^ always rmb u r not alone! feel free to cal me if u miss me XP dun think so much anymore, u always tel me got any prob jus say, but u urself also duwan tel me T^T hmphh. not fair! jus hope u dun think much n dun be too naughty can le XD rmb u r forever my muimui!!

huey leen, u also a very very caring fren ^^ thanks for listening my prob =D n thanks for comforting me with ur long n sweet msg ^^ really appreciate tat XD hope u happy always!! ^^ friends forever!!

writtern @5:55 AM

crap!!!

Sunday, October 23, 2011

im literally crying now.. im nt angry.. im jus hurt.. im tired.. im fucking hell tired of being someone tat nobody appreciate n understands me... tired to worry, care n love... after everything tat i do, i tried my best to treat u like a good friend.. i wan u to know tat i be fren with u nt bcoz of u good in study or pretty, but jus the way u r.. i stil exist to be ur true fren!

i willing to accompany u buy food, willing to wait for u bertugas, sometimes i did hurt u with my words, i did left u out, i realize tat, but u know i never leave u if u need me.. there was once at graduation day, u hurt me twice.. mayb u dun realize tat, but i dun like when i talk with u, u say u duwan talk to me.. n when i answer ur question u jus say u r not asking me.. yes u r joking but tats nt bcoz i angry but bcoz im hurt..

n when i was looking for u to ask bout the registration thing, u jus replied u dunno and walked off to take ur pic.. u leave me alone to responsible for it.. but i dun mind much since is my fault.. but i jus hope u to teman me to solve together.. ytd when chatting wit u n gang, u say u b4 7am reach sunway, i'm worry for ur safety.. ann say i wanna be hero or im annoying.. n mayb he joking too, but its hurt.. but i also try to calm down n relax.. i jus duwan anything bad happen to u.. i tot im ur friend..

u, always come to my class when recess time, when assembly.. when fiona bday u stil rmb to bring cake for me... u ask pn norbayah whether can change to bio class onot.. u give me ham dan keychain.. send me funny sms n mms.. call me to gambateh at class.. i feel so lucky.. so happy to have u.. at least im alone at class dont meant i alone at form 6..

but today, i read ur wall.. i was so speechless.. u wrote u have no one accompany u to ponteng.. u miss ur gang.. n others... why u need them in ur life??? the one tat dint appreciate u, teach u do bad thing.. the one tat dun celebrate ur bday.. did i have a little space in ur heart? u know.. i planned ur bday suprise already.. im so disappointed.. how could u do tis to me?? u say i stil gt other frens, but how bout u??? u push ur responsibilty to them? u duwan to be my fren anymore? its hurts when i love u as my fren so much...

but then i realize im not u.. i cant cal u to do anything i wan.. but please, think for ur own good n safety.. think about ur future..

writtern @4:16 AM

smkam2 chinese society kpop dance

Friday, October 21, 2011

writtern @12:16 PM

Korea Mix Dance - Star Dance 58

writtern @12:14 PM

imma back XD

wow.. my blog so long dint update ~.~ lemme see, the important thing happen last few weeks ago was i went to perlis,kedah n penang for 3days XD bcoz my sis convocation n for vacation with family ^^

doing my math homework while on the way~.~

it was great to witness my sis graduate T^T so touched.. when i was form 2, damn bu seh de her live at kedah.. so lonely at home n nobody help house chores d XD now she ed 4 years n graduated.. congrats!!!!!!!!!! but i feel abit kesian for them tho XD work n study so long for tat piece of graduation cert ~.~ hahah.. but ofcoz need it for working ^^

one day i wil be like her!!! i can see my dad very proud of sis T^T huhuhuh.. i hope i can survive tis stpm first -.-

take pic around my sis Uni -UUM~

went to bukit bendere n kek lok si ^^

bird park inside bukit bendera XD realise tat the head is tilt 180degree behind XD damn cute XD

tis bird my sis n me sayang the head til it upide down XD very manja X)hehehe

stay at tis hotel =)

then last friday went to club golf shah alam for form 6 graduation ^^ me n yixuan responsible for pendaftaran ^^

me, xuan n leen ^^

my form6 bestie~! love tis hamdan so much!!! xp

our ketua pengawas XD

star dance 58 group! ^^miss our practice n crazy time together T^T

the food not nice lo ~.~!! sumore gt mosquito inside the drink n dessert == yucks~~ then going back d, at outside i change to sport shoe XD leg blister coz the shoe quite tight T.T huhu. but overall it was fun n memorable ^^

then last 2 days ago,went to petroscience youth camp klcc for form 6 students XD science stream from selangor, around 83 students ^^ we stayed there 3days 2 night inside the petroscience XD awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeee! eventho i tot stay at hotel at first T.T hahah~ but we jus set our tent n sleep beside this DINOSOUR ~.~

damn noisy leh.. at night wan sleep also hard, stupid dinosour keep make noise 'wrrooooaoaaammmmmmmmmm~~~' waalao~.~ haha.. but apparently i dint dream of dinosour so 'kua cheong' la Joce ^^ haha

then tis 3 guys above is our new close fren from puchong^^ they very friendly n funny XD one of them also bien tai like me XD hahaha. tat time was doing group experiment using bread, mayonaise, tuna, cheese n salad to make sandwich. but actually each ingredient tat we put resemble the layer of ground ^^

then tat guy put so many mayonaise between the breads ~.~!! damn fattening n after we done, the facilitator cal us to eat XD my god...6 meals per day, sumore add tis sandwich at 10pm ~.~!! so fat DX then he talk wit his fren is high concentration n keep laughing there -.- then i know he talking about hamsap stuff d XD

my group-physicist X) n receive free gift ^^

we went to malacca on second day at malacca refinery oil near the ocean~~ damn big! awesome! XD like robots~ next time after facilitator upload pic d only post more ^^ we sumore got watch science experiment which really looks like magic!! next time only tel together with pic ^^

sumore gt play water war XD all chase here n there! damn funny n happy time XD then the last day, everyone also bu seh de to go back T^T but bak kata pepatah melayu, setiap perjumpaan pasti ada perpisahan T^T huhu~

n friendship sometimes jus fake for me.. i get lesson tat i wont treat frens tat gud if they ownself selfish for themselves n hurt my feelings! simply leave when i have prob, n twist the case the other way round.. wat the..

plus a fren tat i tot was kind also betray me behind my back. yes i dont have the right but use ur common sense, it wil hurt my feeling ok? sucks... frens is alot, but true fren is jus afew n at least i have some tat really care about me..

really agree with tis statement = Don't trust too much,don't love too much,don't hope too much because this too much..can hurt you so much!

i saw tis 2 ants kissing XD then i separate them XP so bad ryte.. hehe

my neighbour cat ^^ die d coz eat too much sleeping pill XP

ham dan chiu yan fly~~~ XD the armpit hair cool ryte XD heheh~ i put flower seeds while he sleeping XP

i realise tat my post b4 tis was abit exaggerate ~.~ i jus like the attention n care tat ppl give me, n i dun really "love" him. hormone imbalance XP after back from petroscience, i gain back my confidence X) we cant control our heart, but its nt an offense tho ^^ jus keep it low to ourselves.. pray we can enter UM together eventho the probability like so low.. UM so hard ~.~ but jus hope ^^

finish my exam ytd..n 100%fail math, chemis n bio T^T must jia you tis holiday!!! anyway, the previous post is me n my frens performance ^^ one is during form 5 n one more is form 6 ^^ but quite terrible.. no energy XD now is 4.05 am ~.~should sleep d ~.~ gud nite~

writtern @11:30 AM