Again :-(

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

What can I say except disappointed.. dear god.. must my road be this hard.. :-(

again and again you disappoint me. I pray so much.. am happy you give me chance for test.. but just till half way.. why give me hope instead then? Feel so fool... waiting for all these.. sacrifices and efforts.. no point at all.. hopes.. dreams.. for what if you are going to take back it all..

Vet and teacher.. just my dream.. now don't even dare to hope anything anymore.. the more you hope, you will only get disappointment.. let it be ba.. july? No hope, no disappointment. That easy.

Anyway, thanks my dear friends for comfort. Lucky to have you all <3

writtern @5:23 AM

never growing up~

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

listening to avril lavigne song- here's to never growing up. she's over 30+ but hey, did she really aged ~.~ still young n rock! XD

seriously, growing up is so not fun =.= so funny why when we are kid keep wanted to grow up n work. play masak masak, become doctor, become teacher... lol.. yesterday meet my childhood malay friend n chit chat.. how stress our lives been. studies, parents, work, love, money, etc... not like when we are kid, just worry whether will rain or not later to play with friends..

i miss my childhood! i still remember almost every evening go out play. climb trees trunk n other friends will swing the trunk XD damn nice! if now also play, i guess the trunk will break first XDdamn miss the time~

now everyone going separate road. everyone have their own live n stress. past few days my parents really make me angry. sometimes spending time with them also want to nag. rather spend time with non family though. tat day, there was a charity van n people came houses by houses asking want to donate clothes, newspaper n others or not. then my mum say dont want. i ask her why not since want to throw also?? she just reply me "throw u better la" . waa lao eh.. i was like wth?? i asking u properly, need to say this kind of words or not? make my mood damn bad. seriously i learn alot from my parents the DON'TS . can i say its good?haih

dont know why these days, my friends all find me for love dilemma XD now become more n more matured when u meet different ppl.. love is nt when i like u, u like me then can be together... there are other reasons too keep in conscience too.. different races.. have crush on someone when is nt the time.. different attitude.. feelings is nt everything after all. it hurts, but feelings can be control actually somehow.. as long as u dun step deeper, dont hope, then u can retreat n in a safe path back.. n i learn white lies means.. where there is no benefits at all being honest except just ruin a relationship. as long as u know wat u r doing is right, tat is the most important even if it is a lie. truth is hurts, lies is hurtful, but honesty is hurts too. everything is the same actually. depends on ur maturity level to judge it =)

writtern @12:24 AM

new hope

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

*p/s, i jus updated some pics on previous blog. lazy for arrange so just crumble everything =P sry~

just completed Medsi test last sunday (Malaysia EDucation Selection Inventory) in order to study a course n become a teacher.. at first, i was suppose to attend the long-waiting-colleague-wedding ceremony at Ipoh.. soooo excited when the whole company members can gather together n eat n have fun!

until last friday i checked n are success to attend the test! so happy of course! until i see the date is 12/5/2013... i was like WHAT??O.O crap... its the same day as the wedding date T^T super sad. but what to do, my future is more important.. so i give up that lo...

went to UPSI, Perak with my sister n friend.. about 1 hour 10 min reach d. waited almost 1 hour to enter the test. 300 questions in 1 hour... ok.. the funny part is... the day before i talk bout this..

ME : laogong, my test 300 questions in 1 hour leh!! means 1 question need to answer in 0.2 second! crazy a... 0.2 second i only can read 1 word got la.

HIM : are u sure?? u know how to calculate or not o?

ME : 1 hour = 60 min. so 60 x 60 seconds la

HIM : how much u get?

ME : 120 lo. (i go add it)

HIM : 120?? ur math got so bad or not??

ME : OOOOO... IS 3600................... XD

(LMAO)

1 question is 12 seconds XP hahahahha

make me so stupid leh.. huhu

ended up, i just use 30 min to complete the test. some questions so lame.. ex:

1. adakah anda pernah naik berang? (who on earth won't? omg.. can become sami d XD)

2. adakah anda pernah menyukai / mencintai seseorang? LOL?

3. adakah anda berasa cemburu jika org yg anda sayangi bermesra dgn org lain? ( what is ur bermesra means first XD)

i brought 2 pensil n 2 pen n 1 eraser... as what written in the instruction.. but jus use computer only -.- zha dao

hopefully pass this exam.. but at the same time scare of interview T.T

just cut my hair... cut those brown one only =P when i can dye my hairrrrrrrrrrr.... huhu

sometimes.. all u wan to do is just let go everything =(

writtern @6:28 AM

malacca trip ^^

Thursday, May 9, 2013

after election, the next day straight went to malacca with my family, except my bro. luckily no fight or 5/13 case.. this is only my second time went there, the first time was just went to Petronas melaka refinery oil during my petroscience camp.

stay 3days at a homestay. first day wen to melaka a'famosa water theme park n cowboy park. the water there was dirty! probably bcoz its the last day before cleaning up, but still
but still there are two dead frogs inside -.- n the water start to grow algae... omg.

only the slides were nice. the other 2 slides me n my sis didnt dare to play bcoz its very steep. almost 90degree leh..

very tiring, rent the 2 people's float. my parents sat on it, n we push them. but very nice when we can have fun together =)

then at night, watch the performance. very exciting bcoz there are people dress like tribes. n they can blow bigggg fire through the stick. until i also can feel the heat at the audience seats. plus, they can put off the fire by inserting it into their mouth. so geng.

then many parade and animal show, dances n stuff. when i see the elephants keep dance n shake their heads (like eat 'fing tau yun' XD) i feel very bad n guilt actually. seeing the elephant, horse n sheeps perform.. i really hope they didnt use the harsh way to train them, but give them food treat instead..
but i wont purposely watch animal show again, bcoz i see online many says they use starving method n cane them.. so better dun go n support it..

the 2nd day just went to historical places. pictures will do =) but gonna upload next time lu. now at office XP n keep shopping, eat n eat n eat only at there

last day went to eat again XD n stop by at port dickson to have a look only. the beach is dirty too.. feel embarassed why gt western tourist come this place.. what to do, this is a norm in malaysia.
roughly tats all =) very tiring walk so much

politics.. must it be so dirty? when can our country be more proggresive n stop bribing? almost everything in malaysia keep rise its price without limits. i wonder how to buy a house when i grow up -.- haha..

when the elderly feels lucky to receive many privilages like money nowadays, but open ur wide eyes, it's what u deserve, it's what u paid those tax from. malaysia, abundant diversity, rich with so much resources, where is all the money gone??? even singapore so small also can develop far more than us. i wonder when can put a stop on our polluted country..

duwan say much d =x later getting more 'kek dong' XD
nowadays been reading buddha book o.O eversince went to temple with my bf family, took a few books back to read. it's really meaningful, telling us to treat everyone nice or karma will find u XD no la, u do good, u also feel good isn't it? if got chance, really love to do charity n volunteer to help those who need.

then i gt request for a stick regarding my studies. It says u haven't give ur best yet, cheer up, good things will come to u soon. i really almost cried n happy, bcoz of those words really touched. then when my bf request, It says u no need to worry, ur road is always smooth. yiii... nt fair T.T but really quite accurate. can go try ask ur love life also ^^

last week, my boy ask.. something like, ur parents no work today? no come n find me? then i replied, gt work la, but anyhow u also no come n find me de la. total he ask is twice... n i keep say u wont come n find me also, u ask for wat. but actually my parents indeed no work tat day XD then he really came. then he called n say, u nt say ur parents no work meh? why gt car de? XD i was like, HOW U KNOW??? then he scold me stupid =( lol..how i know ma usually he also no come de, ma simply say lu. haha..

just went to kfc eat.. then i just simply say i wan eat keropok, he straight go buy for me in the rain.. should i say he is stupid XP hehe. i know u sayang me, i sayang u too ^^
even just stay beside u without doin anything, i already blessed with u by myside =) thanks xoxo

writtern @1:26 AM