listening to avril lavigne song- here's to never growing up. she's over 30+ but hey, did she really aged ~.~ still young n rock! XD

seriously, growing up is so not fun =.=  so funny why when we are kid keep wanted to grow up n work. play masak masak, become doctor, become teacher... lol.. yesterday meet my childhood malay friend n chit chat.. how stress our lives been. studies, parents, work, love, money, etc... not like when we are kid, just worry whether will rain or not later to play with friends.. 

i miss my childhood! i still remember almost every evening go out play. climb trees trunk n other friends will swing the trunk XD damn nice! if now also play, i guess the trunk will break first XDdamn miss the time~

now everyone going separate road. everyone have their own live n stress. past few days my parents really make me angry. sometimes spending time with them also want to nag. rather spend time with non family though. tat day, there was a charity van n people came houses by houses asking want to donate clothes, newspaper n others or not. then my mum say dont want. i ask her why not since want to throw also?? she just reply me "throw u better la" . waa lao eh.. i was like wth?? i asking u properly, need to say this kind of words or not? make my mood damn bad. seriously i learn alot from my parents the DON'TS . can i say its good?haih

dont know why these days, my friends all find me for love dilemma XD now become more n more matured when u meet different ppl.. love is nt when i like u, u like me then can be together... there are other reasons too keep in conscience too.. different races.. have crush on someone when is nt the time.. different attitude.. feelings is nt everything after all. it hurts, but feelings can be control actually somehow.. as long as u dun step deeper, dont hope, then u can retreat n in a safe path back.. n i learn white lies means.. where there is no benefits at all being honest except just ruin a relationship. as long as u know wat u r doing is right, tat is the most important even if it is a lie. truth is hurts, lies is hurtful, but honesty is hurts too. everything is the same actually. depends on ur maturity level to judge it =)