finally is the last day of 2012~~~!! OMG.. cant believe i survived in apocalyse? haha, nahh i survived more than that, STPM XD

manage to get through stpm examination.. solely.. in bio exam.. in classes.. in experiments... in 2012! AWESOME~ i am the man XD lol

lets see.. 2012.. nt my favourite year.. endure stpm, go to school early in the morning, cant go paktor occasionally.. =P but i would say it is bitter, but is bittersweet =`) 

have to move on to university or college next year. walk different path of each of us already.. which means depart with friends n teachers.. sad though.. =( 

no idea what will coming on 2013... will i able to enter Uni? will i get above 2.5 cgpa? will my bf go to oversea study? ( i hope nt  =P ) will my waist get thinner? *crap XD will i work n earn more money? will or will not, there should be reasonable reason every thing happen. just keep faith to God is most important =)

still rmb me n bf always talk on phone... until tired only hang up.. he always be there for me. i know he always with me. he pampered me too much until sometimes, i behave like a b*tch, taking him for granted n throw my tantrum on him T.T should change my bad temper, one of my new year resolution XP there's this chinese saying 'nan ren bu huai, nu ren bu ai'.. is it real? but hey, i dont want to be like tat. i want to appreciate those that is nice to me than other scumbag guys is far more worth it =)

dear shian hoong, if u read this.. i will treat u better, n my another 2013 resolution is........................... continue to annoy, trouble n love u more ^^

going to setiawalk later at night to countdown with bf ^^ n of course countdown his birthday on 1st on january too!!! i am so gonna hug u to death XP 

cya!

my malay childhood friend help me ^^

went to my friend's open house for xmas ^^ brought paper stars to fold for my friend. they help me some ^^ 

so tired. just back from setia mall.. apparently gt dancing concert there. i love the water fountain ^^ colorful

next week start working on 1gift.. omg.. my eyes n head sure very pain d. cant sleep till 1pm anymore DX haha.. shh =x

this year no countdown T.T no transport. cant celebrate my bf birthday too T^T just going out lu.. nvm la. gt many pimple also ~.~ dunno wtheck happen to my face, exam till now still there. LOL

from past few months keep raining almost everyday.. never even feel anything.. but last two days those raining make me feel sorrow.. as if the sky is crying too..

one day, suddenly received my friend call told me that my friend's dad passed away.. i was so shocked n stunned.. then i told my parents, out of no where my tears drop.. i asked God, please make my friend to be strong..

then i saw it on tv news too.. then i only can confirm.. God.. You, creator of the universe, the most powerful strength You have.... why would You allow to take someone's life.. someone that being loved by beautiful daughters.. for a moment, i blame God to take away apart of my friend's happiness.. 

visited the funeral yesterday with friends at kl.. thanks to my friend able to fetch.. i really want to comfort her face to face n let them know we as friends, still here to care n will be here always for u.. i tahan my tears super badly when see her crying with eyes swallon n red face..

now, everyone have to face the truth no matter how hurt it is.. i couldnt imagine how much pain to get through this but i believe time would heal them.. yes.. only time will..

everyone who live will leave us one day.. is nature of the earth.. so dear, if u read this, don't be sad anymore. he may have regret on something, but he will be proud of his beautiful n kind daughters. put away all those sad stuff, remember he is always in ur heart and u will always moving on for him. shut down all those 'whys', but embrace all the sweet memories that he had with u.. he must have just want to leave good memory for u, isnt he?

may ur dad rest in peace and may u n family to be strong. one day, time shall and will heal. take care. xoxo

i wonder after 1 year, what course i will be taking.. *suddenly thought about Que Sera Sera song XD

i still remember how naive when i was in standart 1, teacher ask everyone what is our ambition. confidently i said "Doctor" like what 80% my friend does.. kiasu ppl? XD

then another teacher asked, i said "Teacher!"  

but sooner, i realise i love animals so much. i love them eventhough i never know them, completely stranger but i still love them. even i know some cat or dog is dirty or aggresive, i just wish to protect them n care for them.. prove there are still love deserve for them. so weird right ~.~ my mum n dad always scold me dirty girl T^T always restrict n scolded me playing with animals =( but still i curi2 go play with them =P 

i know what they mean, they just scare i will get sick or infected, that's why prevent me from playing. i nvr care that n keep play XD actually somehow, my dad n mum also love cats n dogs as they will give them food so won't have to starve. i'm so glad at least they are nt that cruel =)

i remember when i'm in standart 2, there's one wild cat always come, n i secretly give him eat my burger before going to school XD while i just eat the bread =.= haha. but i feel satisfied. at least i still have something to eat compare to the cat right... i rescued a kitten from a drain, with my school uniform before going to school. like a boss, i just went into the drain @.@ haha. like a kampung student XD but i seriously cant walk away n pretend i didnt see anything T.T

* it's 1130 pm now, brb, have to do laundry d b4 my mum realize ~.~ XD *

i feed a wild puppy, from a very passive dog n scaredy cat dog, i make him comfortable n turn to a very joyous dog =DD eventhough i cant bring to my house back then since my dad dont let, i rare it in the park. i wonder where he go when heavy rains =( everyday i visit, feed n play with him. i watch him grow.. until he died when he passed away about 3-4 months old.... 

i love novels, movies, cartoons about animals, especially Garfield n Odie and Pluto XD love them lots~!

i love my idol, Steve Irwin aka the crocodile hunter. i love every little thing about him! but he passed away due to stingray T.T sabrina yap, saved 200+ dogs at a stranded island n take care of them.. but still passed away at early 43.. why.. why is it so unfair!! they are so kind why God take their live so early yet, leaving their families n animals behind =(

i'm nt telling all these stories to exaggerate myself, i just feel i really love animals. this spirit that drives me badly want to become a veterinarian but i know is imposible for me since my grades is nt good to become one. 4A's in STPM.. how could i?? how could i =( 

now, i'm thinking about bio subjects... since i'm more into human and living things ^^ 

once i thought about physiology, help people to start their new life. 

psychology, help people with their problems. 

but what student am i to choose?obviously nt a clever one.. i know my limit where i can go to.. 

now probably jus become a teacher =) i spoke to my mom, unexpectedly she encourage me XD of course is better compare to vet, as what she said -.- huhu. 

i told her, i love to help ppl, i love to explore, i love to socialize rather than sitting infront of a unspeakable computer. most importantly i am surely an outdoor person. 

actually teacher now is not bad. my teacher told me, she don't regret becoming a teacher because she can take care n spend time with her children. i also asked her, teacher not much salary wor... but she replied "Yes u won't get rich or live in bungalow, but u never starve either" .

but now, the competition is quite high since mostly schools want malay teacher ~.~ nvm.. probably will give it a strike! since teacher is second choice in standart 1 in my list, n even earlier than vet XD 

goodbye vet, hello teacher =) i hope i made a good decision for my future =)