crap!!!
Sunday, October 23, 2011
im literally crying now.. im nt angry.. im jus hurt.. im tired.. im fucking hell tired of being someone tat nobody appreciate n understands me... tired to worry, care n love... after everything tat i do, i tried my best to treat u like a good friend.. i wan u to know tat i be fren with u nt bcoz of u good in study or pretty, but jus the way u r.. i stil exist to be ur true fren!
i willing to accompany u buy food, willing to wait for u bertugas, sometimes i did hurt u with my words, i did left u out, i realize tat, but u know i never leave u if u need me.. there was once at graduation day, u hurt me twice.. mayb u dun realize tat, but i dun like when i talk with u, u say u duwan talk to me.. n when i answer ur question u jus say u r not asking me.. yes u r joking but tats nt bcoz i angry but bcoz im hurt..
n when i was looking for u to ask bout the registration thing, u jus replied u dunno and walked off to take ur pic.. u leave me alone to responsible for it.. but i dun mind much since is my fault.. but i jus hope u to teman me to solve together.. ytd when chatting wit u n gang, u say u b4 7am reach sunway, i'm worry for ur safety.. ann say i wanna be hero or im annoying.. n mayb he joking too, but its hurt.. but i also try to calm down n relax.. i jus duwan anything bad happen to u.. i tot im ur friend..
u, always come to my class when recess time, when assembly.. when fiona bday u stil rmb to bring cake for me... u ask pn norbayah whether can change to bio class onot.. u give me ham dan keychain.. send me funny sms n mms.. call me to gambateh at class.. i feel so lucky.. so happy to have u.. at least im alone at class dont meant i alone at form 6..
but today, i read ur wall.. i was so speechless.. u wrote u have no one accompany u to ponteng.. u miss ur gang.. n others... why u need them in ur life??? the one tat dint appreciate u, teach u do bad thing.. the one tat dun celebrate ur bday.. did i have a little space in ur heart? u know.. i planned ur bday suprise already.. im so disappointed.. how could u do tis to me?? u say i stil gt other frens, but how bout u??? u push ur responsibilty to them? u duwan to be my fren anymore? its hurts when i love u as my fren so much...
but then i realize im not u.. i cant cal u to do anything i wan.. but please, think for ur own good n safety.. think about ur future..
