wow this is weird

Wednesday, June 7, 2017

this is damn weird, super weird to be in front of my laptop and blogging again. feel like centuries. damn nostalgic. but yeah this is the place i can share my feelings with.

so many things had happen in this roughly 2 years since i last updated in my blog. the main reason why im here again is i wanna lash out about my dad. my one and only dad, the first person in my heart is no longer here. he passed away due to cancer on my birthday, 3/4/2017. coincidently is also his chinese calendar birthday. maybe i am fated with him afterall.

still remember before he passed away at the hospital, he told me "u also know the most loved person is u, i never hit u before". i was so damn touched and then my bf came. potong steam hahaha. he was like "dont worry uncle, i will take care of her, if she's naughty, i will beat her" =.= then apa lagi, my dad say him la where can beat one, lovers should be very loving. even though i didnt manage to tell my dad he's the person i love the most too, i guess he should know. the last thing that i talked to you and u nodded was "promise me u will never forget me". only God knows how much i love u, how heart broken i am to let u go.

during the days where i stayed overnight at hospital with my dad, he was caught with bacteria infection and had fever up and down. the whole night i dint sleep because keep changing ur towel on ur forehead. u was sleeping soundly as u were injected with morphine (pain killer) to make u sleep. countless times i walked from the bed to the toilet to wet it back, bout every 10 minutes repetitively? i was damn tired, my leg was tired, my body was tired but as long as u are ok, i wil never ever give up doing it even if its every single day as long as u're by myside

there was one night u keep asking for water and i repeatedly feed u water throughout the whole night. then u feel bad and said sorry to me for disturbing me to sleep and insist to just put the bottle next to u but i refused. i still wan to hold the bottle for u and drink. life is funny arent it? when i was a baby i guess u're the one who feed me. u never did complain, so who am i to complain for so much more u have done???

every single day when u was chicken rice seller, u woke at 3am to cook the rice, and came home at 5pm. then at 10pm-1am u will roast the duck and pork, then go back to sleep for 2 hours and woke up and drove all the way to PJ to work. it was so damn tiring but u never stop doing it. even when i was young, ur offday is just twice a month, u also will drive all the way to KL park to let us play. even robot need sometime to shutdown and rest but i wonder how u able to do that.

i still rmb when i was young, the first thing when i came down from room, i will ask "where is dad?". i was so attached to him to the point when he just go out to buy newspaper i also will cry if he went without me. whenever im sick, he will force and bring me to clinic but when he's sick, he just swallow the medicine quietly. born as a orphan, work hard throughout his life perhaps had make him stronger but i know deep down in his heart, he have a soft and kind hearted heart.

like there was one time i beg him to bring my stray cat to veterinarian, and he did fetched me XD he always say he dont like cats but at the end he always tapao extra chicken and bring back home to feed stray cats behind my house, and i caught him talking with my cat XD strong on the outside but soft at the inside i guess

at the hospital, on one day at 5am, u woke up and told me in relieve, "another day i able to see you guys". it breaks my heart so much to see u endure such pain just to see us. for me to afraid losing u is already so painful for me to bear, but u have to lose all of us must be terrifying.

life is just so unfair sometimes. why would God take him away so fast? right after my internship from Melaka, i came back and brought him to hospital. then he was diagnose with cancer. he dint even attend my convocation. my sis had booked terengganu room hotel for my family and ended up i was there all alone in the room. my brother and sis in law was on another hotel room since bought long ago.

thank God i am bless with my bf that accompany me at there. he unable to take leave on my convo so he just came on one day and he actually left a card at the hotel room before he left. when i came back to the hotel room, tears start to well up to experience such a big room but im just all alone. then the moment i saw the card and read his loving words make me strong again. i slept in the big hotel room alone with lights on. scary HAHA.

my dad able to watch my graduation ceremony live on my uni website on ipad. thank God for such technologies nowadays if not i damn emo. stil rmb during my 2nd year uni i asked my dad to buy me graduation flower, then he happily say yes of course, we will go get flower. who knows what will happen in the future except God. that's why i always tell myself treasure each moment, live every moment earnestly bcoz nobody knows what will happen tmw. every single day is a gift, thats why it's called present :)

the day u passed away was the day i cried the most. bcoz its my birthday means i cried a lot as a baby and as ur daughter where i lost my dad. cried until almost vomit and eyes couldnt get anymore red. nevertheless i know u stayed for super long for us, u were damn suffer to the point we never had the selfishness to keep u anymore and let u to God. i hope u promised me like what i told u, to never forget me. one day i will come and find u too, pa. love is our only way of communication now where our heart wont be far apart and love keeps us unseparated.

luckily throughout my most miserable and devastating time i have my bf that took leave to accompany me at hospital, prayed with me, comfort me to sleep etc. and ofcoz my beloved frens that been there for me supporting me throughout the whole night and helped my family. words can never tell how appreciate i am.

i lost two of the most important people in my life, which another was my super best guy friend, Fikri. he always there to help me regardless anything and make sure im always fine. i was damn devastated to hear such sudden news and couldnt believe it. he always call at night right after i broke up to make sure i was fine, brought me to watch movie that he lied he havent watched, brought gifts for me etc.

he is just too kind hearted. btw, for any of my secondary friends that by chance reading this, it was actually him that bought Secret Recipe cake for szelyn bday instead of me, he was just using my name back then bcoz he dont want it to be awkward and enjoy the cake.

days that are gone will never come again. cherish every moment and live it to the fullest! the most important thing in our life cant be bought by money. just live ur life and never regret :) talking about money, i just closed my scholarship account during my form 3 for straight As, and the investment has rised to almost rm 1K :D hardwork paid off. now waiting for start working next week while waiting for Kingsley starts open on Sept ^^ thats all for now~ ciaoz

writtern @4:03 AM

sem 3 finally ended!

Sunday, February 1, 2015

hey hey peeps! finally im back to my bloggie :D damn long no post anything. can say tat i only post once or twice in a year only which are during my sem break as im damn freaking busy with my studies n stuff. is like i had survived through a big war (semester) only i will come back to my blog ~.~ sry for some of the scrambled pics again xp

sem 3 if would to describe in one word is simply DIE . seriously its freaking busy semester with damn freaking reports n bloody assignments. especially there's this subject which does not have final exam but in return have to do report which i had went to Bidong island for fieldtrip before this for one week. this full report must consists of every activities's results which to compare among the 8 stations and discuss from introduction to conclusion. there's about 20 subtopic sia... freaking torturing like hell. the last day before submitting the report, almost every of my coursemate did not sleep to finish this shit. damn last minute bcoz really superb much to do! graphs, discussions, maps, tables and stuff.

seriously can u imagine even after final exam finish also feel stress bcoz of this? seeing other ppl go back n relax after exam but i stil struggling to finish this. its jus eat,sleep,report and repeat. now so proud that i finish this shit. total everything was 222 pages. i cant imagine of other ppl who did for 500 pages ~.~ this printing n binding rm32 like tat. huhu. at least just 7cent per page if not i cry blood wei.. already sacrifice time n now money. haih. sometimes i really feel this is crazy. we just degree man. n in a short period of time u wan us to submit 20topics which is very precise n thoroughly discussed?? hello? we still got other 4 subjects which are labs. omg.. now think back also nightmare.. pleaseee be good to me man this stupid subject.. argghhh stress even to flash back. bcoz of this report also reveal the true colour of my fren. dont talk crap infront of me when behind of me u r using my work. i dont care u take my work but seriously bragging saying tat wont use it and stuff but its diff in the reality really pisses me off. watever. i did wat i had so let God judge our actions. below is some of the 'review' of my report.

see the graphs~ so many phyla..

graphs of physical parameters like temperature, pH, dissolved oxygen across the depth of the ocean. make me headache.. hate graphs!

ok done with all the stress part. next i wanna talk about fieldtrip to taiping, perak for 3 days with 2 course which is my marine biology and marine science course. seriously travel from terengganu to perak using bus. i could have just gone back to selangor T^T so near wei.. huhu.

this is my gang which i mostly with. err ed past 3 months like tat i also almost forgot wat we did XD we went to matang mangrove forest which we conduct the inventories on the mangrove trees. went down the muddy water which suck ur leg ~.~ damn geli but very challenging also. also have to catch the fauna there to see their abundance. i was in charge on quadrat so we apparently have to find organism on that area only. but the crabs keep running here n there ended up we just simply chase and catch it as our result XD we also found polychate or bristle worm which we accidently killed it when pulling it out from the mud. so cruel. so much of blood @.@ luckily i was not same group with my fren.. she started 'mud fight' on the other side which doing line intersect instead of quadrat.. their face is epic! haha

the mud face XD bcoz of this, we came out of an idea of soap mini advertisement for our presentation. there is really soap derived from mangrove mud that is on market though. during the presentation, everyone laugh like hell when played the video. is like my fren's face after put the soap become me with bollywood sound effect n stuff. LOL. damn funny and embarrassing. even lecturers laugh so hard.

mr crab XD so hard to catch this n identify ~.~

like usual, camp always need creating group name n games. really funny n memorable~

this pic was taken during lunch break. so many monkeys wei. see the rooftop there with my coursemate's face XD there was my frens who been chased by a bunch of monkeys and fell down to each other after running. luckily my international fren rescued her by shouting against the monkey and scare the monkeys off XD seriously i heard only also feel scare if kena chased by so many monkeys ~.~ luckily ntg happen

this is the brahminy kite eagle when we visit the charcoal factory. during the boat tour, we managed to see about 30++ of these flying towards our boat as the siren calling them bcoz last time the boat man used to feed these eagles for tourist to see but it affects the ecosystem as they should hunt on themselves instead of us feeding it. so they stop this lu. pity after come then fly back to forest without food.. lol play them pulak.

eagles~ so freaking many man when we count also pening d ~ but seriously awesome. too bad we were not lucky enuf to see dolphin during the boat tour which may due to the cloudy water tat time. only this matang river we can find dolphin in malaysia i heard.

the chalet we stayed in

during the boat tour n passed by this chinese shop. damn.. really feel like going there straightaway after so long no eat chinese food T.T

the charcoal processing place~ looks like igloo leh. they put the woods inside n burn~

went to a small matang museum~

besides, we went to taiping lake garden for bird watching. we did not manage to enter the zoo bcoz that day was raining and me n my frens find it nt worth to pay n watch in a rainy day as most animals sure will find their shed. so replace with going to aeon shopping mall instead n eat sushi XD seriously tat time really feel like heaven after so long 'trapped' in tganu. first night we sleep at telekom hostel then second night we sleep at the chalet in matang forest. about 8 hours journey in the bus.. damn sien n headache. me n shiyan keep beating each other highscore of my phone game n addicted. now all my phone de games all also his highscores only. hmphh. this fieldtrip really much better n enjoyable than the bidong fieldtrip~

during the sem break which lasted for one week, i went to pulau pangkor with my beloved bestie, jeniffer =D after so long we craved for a trip finally we went. but just 3d2n only. the most funniest n unforgettable moment was during the ferry journey XD the ferry will stop at one place first before stop to pangkor island. so me n her also dont know n the first to left the ferry when it stops. damn excited sumore selfie on the jetty when reach while i was quite confused why so less ppl come down n many still on the ferry. then only we get to know we stopped at the wrong place! so damn malu!! its all fisherman place leh. then we waited for another ferry to come. luckily it was not the same ferry. hahaha. really enjoyed n love the time with her.

not pulau pangkor XD still can selfie infront of the boat and everyone was watching us. must be thinking why we so excited at this fisherman place. LOL

this only the real pangkor island XD now she blushing d xp

always like to take pic n sampat xp

small kid eating~ haha. always treat me eat. very rich is it. save money for next trip a ^^

i feel very bad of sleeping bcoz i very tired while she barely can sleep. sumore the weather there keep raining make us hard to walk around at the island. lol. this is so not us.. not crazy but indoor type d. huhu. then went to lost world of tambun n hotspring. ntg much to play except the wet park de slides. others just normal. sunway lagoon is way much challenging n fun. nvm sure got next time n pick other place to travel again with my love :) thanks for everything jen. u're the only one who always welcome me when i back n find me regardless of how busy u are. truly appreciate tat damn much bcoz i dont think i can find someone like u ^^

well moving on, i guess many of u all know about the flood in my uni right? haha.. umt.. last time they say University Mudah Terbakar bcoz our Canselori there burnt b4.. now they say University Mudah Tenggelam.. it rained non stop for about a week then flood d. lol. this is our back door which u can see the tar road also destroyed. so pitiful n embarrassing wei.. really speechless. the lab also enter water n the big gate, lamp post also gone. imagine the cost to fix all these.. b4 this we planted mangrove saplings on beside of my uni and the beach since they are side by side. now bcz of this caused the beach corrode until our mangrove side n wipe off everything.. so damn terrible the waves.. i wonder how long will umt survive.. really ironic to study about stop clearing the mangroves for land development on a place which doing it. u destroyed it at the first place n now want to fix it. wth? really speechless.

thank god my rental house there no flood. some of my frens house flood till enter their house n need to shift. so troublesome. its so hard to move around for food when raining.. suddenly my bf's mother called n asked whether im fine or not n gt food supply or not. omg damn touched.

my ichthyology lecturer, Dr Liew XD he is damn cute, sporting n always smile!! everyone jus love his class as it is relax except when quiz time XD when quiz, my fren go n googled for the answer and he saw us and we both laugh. luckily this lecturer very good XD

only this lecturer who will pose like tis lo XD

i got pic with him XD beside him, the red shirt xp

coral reef web drama~

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IXImhNL5DXQ
this is the link for our coral presentation video we made after so many cuts and effort. and other powerpoint slides. spent damn much time for this but only get 7/10 =.= but the highest in the class la. umt lecturer damn kiamsiap. even give tips also lie one! wth. wasting time only.

this was taken at new mydin tat opened near umt which about 10min drive only. yay~ much more convenient to buy stuff d rather than going to another mydin about 20m drive n chinatown. that time we went to Guardian at town n make Tan become our model XD she hate make up, so we grabbed her n apply mascara, eyeliner, foundation, lipstick on her using those tester XD even the worker there almost laugh. imagine this face go to typical mydin. HAHA so mean XP

my slipper.. they always make fun of me that i jump instead of walk == n proven by my show.. only gt deep hole at the front but no heels.. lol sad. must learn how to walk d.. haha

this lame lab.. have to calculate this zooplankton (microscopic animals) until 300 sia to get the percentage abundance... damn pain the eyes n wasting time. this were the fish larvae and zoea of crab

so imagine u play at the beach n accidently gulp the water~ so much protein n free seafood~ haha

motor accident~ huhu. fren ride through the sand and her elbow bruise even deeper than mine which have to stitch. mine left a scar d till now. huhu.

luckily hand no scar if not so ugly d

half way during class take out this big phyton in the class. damn scary. i love animals but this i really scare T.T

oya, b4 final test, i fainted in a grocery shop. bcoz i just ate milo n biscuit in the morning n till 4pm like tat went cycling with my roommate searching for food. then reach there i straight sit on the chair n nex thing i know my vision become black n she keep slapping my cheek to wake up XD then the owner of the shop realised n send me into the car wanted to bring me to clinic but after tat i woke up n insisted to go back. b4 tat my housemates came with motor also to see me right away after she called them. huhu damn freaking good de friends. then i rest at my own room n laugh on wat had happened. my frens all scolded me bcoz wat if i fainted while cycling. tats more dangerous d. then after tat the owner of the shop who sent me brought one packet of rice, oats etc for me!! like mangsa banjir pulak LOL. damn freaking touched n nice! i owe them man. later go back there will buy something to pay them back :)

38 jeniffer always play hueyleen. haha. thanks so much accompany me dye my hair ^^

i just love them a bunch ^^

accompany my mangkuk study overnight at Donutes cafe but apparently mission failed. keep talk n i fall asleep at 4am. huhu. sorry darling

dont be like ghost later the side table that 2 guys saw XP

i make bittergourd tea for her. always sleep damn less n not healthy. scold or advice also dont care. really will destroy ur own if u continue like this lo. always nose bleed, hamsap kia a? PLEASE take good care of urself...!!! always worry bout others but not urself. i stil wan be aunty with u de!! haih wanna find bf for u n take care u only can is it?

this was my belated bday suprise for my dear after so long his bday passed. ed 2 years celebrate his bday without being by his side as i stayed at uni for assignment. damn pathetic n bad but really damn busy leh. even my fren from michigan back after one year also i dint managed to meet her. haih feel damn freaking bad.. she bought me a puma shirt for me. haih make me more guilty. anyway my bf bday just celebrate at his ex-working place, loud speaker karaoke there. suprised him by his ex-colleague called his phone n say saw me with other ppl. but he didnt believe n ed can guessed when he come == not fun at all. anyway really happy tat he like his present n wat i did for him :) seeing him happy is wat i want d~

the bday present~ luckily he like the shirts ^^ yay

this cake he treat as last year's anniversary which we didnt manage to celebrate as we both in uni. the turtle night sky is a device which makes ur wall got many stars. damn touched when he closed my eyes and showed me. maybe abit childish bcoz tat thing was meant for kids to sleep better with the songs but i found this romantic. haha. sometime he is kayu, but i love this so much^^

this msg makes me wanna fly XD eventhough he always zhat me stupid which sometimes really pisses me off, but deep down i know he like it though. is just tat sometimes make me no confident am i compatible with him? 3 years been together but i feel forever aint long to be with him. just cherished every single second with u b4 going back uni n suffer! jia you!!!

this was just today~ went to FRIM, kepong with sis, her fren n my dear :) damn tiring but the nature is damn peaceful n nice. except for the canopy walk which i loathe damn much. my whole face was pale include my lips. i dint even look down leh.. lol.. n he keep shake the bridge n make me damn scare!! hmph. no next time. old d, dont know why so many things also scare d. haha

tall leh T.T

the leaf and the trunk damn big right. feel like been shrunk haha

couple germany home shirt :) he said that i looks like cat.. i also dont know why my face like this -.-

recently went to sunway with sis ^^ can see how fat i had become. huhu. lazy exercise also d. ok la sick jor T.T nights~

writtern @10:29 AM

end of my holiday~

Wednesday, September 3, 2014

i cant believe i jus left 3 more days before going back to uni life again. so scary to think about sleeping less n assignment, quiz, test! last two weeks went back d for pulau bidong fieldtrip actually. no pic on this blog since i lazy to upload xp it is in my fb album if wanna see XD

not bad but is not exactly a trip when u only have bout 5hours to sleep. of course i enjoy the speedboat super much! is damn awesome to have bout 50min of boat trip that speeds super much where ur butt will jump high up and land painfully. but is superb exciting n challenging in the middle of ocean with waves n totally unforgettable. my fren tudung went flying like super hilarious. haha xp

so wat actually the fieldtrip was just make us have experience n propose a full report n presentation on sampling methods where we catch the marine life from fish, hermit crabs to worms bottom down. went to snorkelling while recording data under water n see many colourful fish, there is even one fish with like rainbow color. damn amazing to swim with them n even had swim with swordfishes. quite dangerous actually but we swim away from them then.

then did manta tow where the boat will tow u one by one behind holding the board, then u just put ur head inside the water n see the corals n record the percentage of certain types. the best part is, u get to drink enormous sea water.. lol.. damn disgusting -.- especially after seeing under the microscope tat have countless of zooplankton.. we even went to middle of ocean during night where we cant see anything at all to do water sampling for plankton later on. it was fun but not when 3hours on the boat keep sway here n there tat makes u dizzy n wanna puke all ur stomach out.. i just take the seasick pill if not i also cant barely tahan ~.~

overall it was amazing trip but tiring also. but ya, i miss it. i miss the swing also XD we call it the wrecking ball coz is a rope with a ball exactly like tat. haha. but was dangerous as well bcoz one of my fren went jump off from it n tat ball ter-bang her lips! the blood gush out but she say she ok n go to toilet alone. i was so worried bcoz i also gt fault to pursue her to play T.T then at toilet she keep the blood in the mouth n puke out. it was so much tat literally scare the hell of me. luckily she is a very manly type n ask me to keep it silent. if nt the lecturer will make a fuss of it.. but is still ok, just inside lips there bruise.. damn guilty T^T

in tat 2weeks being in terengganu, i heard so much of sad stories from my housemates which are also my coursemates. every night we chit chat n watch tv together. seriously they are damn amazing n funny. they can just talk from normal chats until 18++ . damn funny. n ya my coursemates say tat my chinese male lecturer always looking at me when he teach!! oh gosh n i tot only i realize tat. i should have seduce him to get an A XD haha jus jk. then one day, they somehow talk until family.. n i just get to know my fren who is damn talkative n always laugh the hardest n loudest actually has a sad thing happen..

her dad passed away literally 2 days before a culture celebration.. n is just bcoz her brother send him to hospital since his dad complain of gastric pain. so they gave an overdose pain killer n took away his life just tat sudden. can u imagine someone tat u love so much just so sudden to lost without giving any signal at all?

til today she say she cant accept the fact. she from top student just sleep on her test n fall to the last place until her teacher keep motivate telling tat her dad wont be happy to see her doing bad for her future. then her mom with her relationship also not good tat time coz they just have ntg to say except tat empty feeling. her mum keep his husband study room clean n hug his unwash shirt every night to sleep. n until few weeks suddenly her mum jus like went aggresively push all the books down, pack all the shirts n donate it to charity. not even a single thing left of his dad except one of his working attire. n she sent my fren to learn motor n be independent to go school, tuition alone. her brother purposely postpone his bachelor studies n help emotionally for the mum n my fren. luckily they able to think rationally n physically move on.

while she was saying all these, her tears keep dropping.. n i was so angry of myself tat i cant say anything tat can make her feel better.. n when i comfort her say tat is ok at least u have good memories with him before n she replied me, wats the point of having a good memories but the greatest sadness?, i'ld rather not close to him then so i wont hurt much. i was so speechless n feel somehow true. until my another fren, which her mum is chinese n her dad is malay has another problem. for someone who willing to convert to another religion must have been truly love tat person to sacrifice n endure all. n her family was all so perfect where she so attached to his dad back when she was young. until one day, his dad brought another girl came n introduce into the house. the hatred accumulates on my fren bcoz this woman causes the whole family from happy to very 'cold' house.

one day my fren slapped tat bitch n her dad slap her back.. n slapping scenario for quite long of the family.. epic..tats how she change n hate her dad to the max to leave her mum alone but the mum doesnt want to divorce as they have no income at all. til one day after she enter matric, her dad admitted to ICU due to heart prob. tat's when she cried for her dad n ask the God to dont take away his life so she will forgive her dad.. luckily her dad survived n they apologized to each other. tats the moment she realize no matter how terrible ur parent is, they stil the one who have relation with u n nothing can question about tat.. i was so lucky to have been blessed with a good family.. hearing all these stories with my frens, i realize how important time is. they say we never know wat we have until we lost it, but is actually we know wat we have n will lost one day, is just tat we never take any action to appreciate it. of coz we cant fulfil everything but at least we do our best n dont regret on the future. there is no perfection in the world, just make it better, tats wat i wan to share here.

to my sweetheart, im so sorry tat sometimes i take granted of ur unconditional love n always expect u will comfort me. such a selfish girl.. thanks alot for bringing me go sunway lagoon n animal park which i love it to the max despite ur swollen leg tat so hard to walk also. i wil treat u better n together we practice to be better n grow old together :D u told me tat grow old is more romantic than giving flowers. i should have agreed with u instead i reply u i wan both. haha. watever it is, as long as the real meaning of love n meaning of loyalty still be there is the most important :)

basically wat i did or achieve in my long sem holiday which about 2 months is lesser than wat i plan to do. first is lose my phone n i ended up working for bout 3weeks, tats it. n things tat i plan to do like learning guitar, watch my dramas, help out at pets shelter, read my novels etc ended up i dint do at all =.= time really flies damn fast.. not enuf holiday n enjoy T^T huhu. watever one year down, 2 years more to go. gambateh!

writtern @9:46 AM

practice makes perfect ^^

Saturday, July 26, 2014

hey there! finally i have the time n mood to blog again! XD i jus finally end my work at one gift!! damn happy no need work from morning til night already n most importantly pay back my lost hp!! bloody shitty day to lost my phone. cried like hell to lost all the pic in my phone.. so much memories. luckily he stil got keep some. haihhhh. anyway is past tense! now must enjoy my holiday b4 going back to umt on mid august to pulau bidong for field trip for 2 weeks == then come back selangor. wasting my money. luckily plane ticket damn cheap. if not sakit hati d.

soooooooo many things happen n i nvr update for sooo loooooooooongggg. ok again let the pictures speak the words~ n again the pictures all scrambled bcoz i lazy to arrange~ sorry xp

this is my love bday cake tat i surprised him for belated birthday. went to his house myself early morning without inform him n see him sleeping n snoring infront of me XD damn yong sui lo if other ppl see but i see only is very cute n adorable la XD hahah. then when he open his eyes he was so stunt n shy XD gave him a basketball jersey which is in the pic n choc cake. see his happy face is enuf for me =3

this was taken when i went to his uni which i tag from my uni XD damn stupid almost 5hours journey to go pahang by bus n 6 hours journey to back to terengganu. bloody hell sit till damn boring n wasting my time == the driver drive damn slow n keep stop. but nvm at least i get to spent some time with him which is less than the bus journey tho == erggh. anyway i get to be with him n wear yukata for first time! so cheap only rm3 to rent.

this is the present he gave me, the minion radio (i stil dont know how to use it -.- dont ask me why coz i doubt anyone can too. lol ). n also the phone deco XD i won one also, a pink bunny. then we exchange n i took this angry chicken? regret sia at first i like this, but when he literally gave me i feel its ugly DX wateva la. still our memory xp

while i jus get him a tiramisu choc and a cup with our pic ^^

this is jus one of our lab to dissect fish n analyze their body organ n again assignment like duhh. the other day we dissected shark n stingray. personally i strongly disagree dissecting animals for just look at it for few hours n then throw it away. so cruel la. tat time we dissected a stingray, inside it got 3 baby stringrays T^T damn small. stingray is ovoviviparous which the egg hatch in the mother's. damn cruel. i never dissect a frog or mice during form 6 suddenly dissect all these. haih wat to do~

then the other day we have our marine reptiles lesson with our well known Dr Juanita which expert is turtles n spent her entire life studying them n conserve them. suddenly her students came with a few bags, n took out snakes from inside!! there are total of 10 snakes in the hall. damn scary lo!!!!! some are really brave to just grab it n took pictures while i brave enuf also just go n touch it ~.~ haha

this was our trip to UM zoology museum. the student was very enthusiastic n keep laughing while explaining to us XD damn cute lo. hahaha

get to stay in UM hostel. was so much better than umt hostel but in terms of the classrooms, i stil prefer umt. umt auditorium n classes, facilities is more high class n new to be at =/ but no doubt UM is damn recognised n preferable to stay at la. so well known n in the city most importantly! unlike terengganu == luckily umt eventho small but inside is nice. just bear for 2 more years to go T.T

some of the preserved animals ~

my coursemate. she is damn sweet n kind girl. anyway, she got some sickness since small.. really hope she heals n get back her confidence!!

piranha.. their body seems like glittering de ~.~

selfie XD

ahem ahem sensored pls xp

the garden eel fish so geli see their head keep waving at the soil ~.~ they are embedded inside which about 3-5m long actually. poking out bcoz the filter feeding fish~

my teammates so funny gang~

my boy so cute n childish XD but i love him so much to be crazy with me XD

taken from microscope. cross section of a worm, Nereis.

barnacle~ there are many other pic but lazy to upload like zoea of crab n stuff. so amazing that a microscopic crab can become big when adult. the other day we dissected a crab also. apparently our crab tat we get very hard to die. we poke the crab abdomen n usually after 30m will die but ours stil can move. then my lecturer came n see. suddenly the crab jus pinch my lecturer's thumb!!! n it didnt let go no matter how we open. all was damn panicked n my fren cried. lol too exaggerate i guess. then we just pull off the crab's pincher from the abdomen n is still hanging on my lecturer's thumb. luckily no bleed or lost the finger ~.~ just can see get pinch damn deep n strong.

pic captured during my birthday night before heading to klcc trip XD shi yan so shy to take pic. haha

during briefing for field trip on next sem. stupid la.. not yet finish this sem already keep having briefing for next sem.. damn pek chek ended up me n shiyan drawing all these stuff on this paper which we suppose to calculate the area XD so bad.

presentation on invertebrate class. i'm at the far right side while the one holding the mic is Sharu. she was wayyyyyyyyyy too over on this presentation about pearl XD but she is damn funny girl n perverted XD make us always laugh bcoz of her drama XD yet i love her bcoz if not will be bored d.

my roommate celebrate for my bday! another pretty roommate was not here coz she went back d~ seriously Annasai-105 room.. i will never forget u.. the room with the most cockroach perhaps ~.~ so many times we had shouted n running out from room barefooted ~.~ damn embarassing when other ppl hear n saw. lol. anyway, will stay at rented house next sem d~ yeah~ bye cockroach room XP

the drama queen~ haha. bird watching at unisza~ saw many beautiful n elegant birds wei. famous of migrating birds here besides than biawak. haha.

oceanus maritus masquerade dinner night with the seniors. just went there to makan n dance n play some games. the food is just normal but we enjoyed also la . however i wont go again lo. the food too expensive for tat taste == but my umt dean n those big big fella came to our dinner surprisingly without being invited. haha. they are in the hotel n saw our banner n straight come. my lecturer say bcoz they pay attention on marine bio course in umt. not bad at least he realised our existence. haha

hahah our dai lou bag for dinner XD no la, is Hajar's bag which she ask his help to hold awhile n i took this pic xp

result stil haven out for this 2nd sem.. but last year sem result was better than wat i expected. seriously during stpm i only manage to get 2.xx something only for cgpa. but in uni straight get 3.xx . first time lo. n i get to know those from matrix get 3.xx but now drop to 2.xx . i was shocked how it really differs =O

my lovely bff jen! straight away hang out with her after i came back. such an awesome time hang out relaxing n talk with u bout our problems together. thank u so much for spending ur time for me! love u til the core! thank God for sending u to my life ^^

this little mangkuk hui chien send me tis pic on my bday eventho busy studying at Michigan. damn far away from me DX is been a year i haven see her T^T miss her hug. maybe will meet her end of this year since she say she will flying back malaysia =D but really use alot of money~

my sweetheart baobei shianhoong. how to say.. sometimes he is very angry type n sometimes childish but the way he love me just melts me away. thanks for always be there for me when i need u most. every small action of u wiping off food from my mouth, take food for me eat even when u munching away hungrily just literally touched my heart. eventho always go to the same place hang out, watch movie, sing k, swimming, shopping n eat, i never feel bored but i feel contented n happy.

maybe i too fast satisfied like my fren say of me. but must we compare? ur heart is the most important. wat i really wants is someone who will love me endlessly til old. n i just hope we can always be together n love each other. although i cant find the feeling of 'butterfly in the stomach' anymore since i am so used to u, but isnt every love will like this one day? sometimes we just get so used to each other n dont feel anything until u lost it. so commitment n understanding is important besides than the 'butterfly' feeling!

n the book i read, Men are from mars, women are from venus is damn good written to open up ur mind tat many couple experienced the same problem. just remember the title itself will keeps u aware to be more tolerate! peace ;D byes~

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