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2012-01-20T06:39:00.000-08:00

today.. is my math teacher's last day teaching.. she get this sick... risky.. very risky.. not sure whether can be cure fully onot.. not sure whether she be able coming back..

yes, previously i did mention b4 in my blog, i dislike her.. i dislike her temper, impatient when teach me.. make me so stress when one-on-one with her.. several time after her class, her sarcastic words, i wil go toilet n cry.. maybe i am sensitive.. but all these while, i tot to be a good teacher requires good relationship with the student first so that the student wont hate the subject..

i always complain bout her.. jus a day b4 i heard this news, i told my bf tat i duwan her to teach me.. very stressful.. then the next day, i received tis shocking news.. my heart scattered.. why am i so stupid?? so selfish?? so cruel to utter those words, after all these while i am so lucky to have a very good teacher that teach well. yes, she is very very strict, but her knowledge is beyond my doubt.

my math mark always disappoint her.. but today, b4 going back, twins n me went to staff room.. then we saw her cry while talking with other teachers.. then after tat, she hugged us.. she hugged me. the one tat will-eat-me-teacher just hugged me superb tight. somehow i feel her pain.. her appearance that always so strict also will cry.. so hurt n sad watching her weak side.. all cry le.. haiih..

then she apologize that she very impatient when teaching us, thats why always scold us.. but is actually for our own good.. being strict only i able to complete my work.. or else i wil stuck on math halfway n give up finding the solution.. but i only realise n appreciate her after she wanna leave.. why i so bad... only learn to appreciate when gone? then she cal me dun give up, n say i can do it, not only in math but other subjects.. feel so touched..

no need to be stress anymore... no need to worry topical test.. isn't it wat i wan?? but i feel so sad.. i lost a passionate teacher.. she even sacrifice to stil come to skol for the sake of teaching us.. can see her physical start to have symptoms tho.. she really loves to become teacher.. one day, i would wan to be a teacher too.. she inspire me alot..!

ok!! duwan sad d! finally after 3 months get petroscience camping de picture XD so long only get ~.~ but jus from a teacher, not ori wan, so the 3rd day dun have T.T tis above pic is doing sandwich bread at 10+pm @.@ LOL.. got an incident of dirty minded also happens to connect me n my bf XD

hearing dunno wat thing~ but me n him is in there :D

my team X)

at malacca de fuel refinery~

party nite XD above got balloons ^^

we wearing black shirt ^^ n he's staring at me XD always perasan say i stare him but he also ma XD

last week, he got his Muet test result..quite disappointing.. but wat had past already past, i jus comfort him, the only thing i can do.. even a simple hug n pat i unable to give him.. hearing he so suffer n sad but i cant help him anything.. tot ask my fren's help fetch, but friday she's busy.. so hard to meet him.. i jus wan to see him.. but.. haih.. hope holiday can ba.. very very miss him =(

anything la xP

2012-01-06T00:11:00.000-08:00

update new year at icity pic =)

the ferris wheel middle there is the second to countdown ^^

i go early ~.~ nt really nice..

took when i riding the carousel horse^^ now icity gt fun fair le =)

tada~ two storey de^^

swing~

tis two building got LED flamingo attached^^ at nite sure damn nice.

riding pirate ship. nt scary at all.. jus make my tummy ticklish, keep laugh XD

damn cold inside!! hand n leg like totally freezing become ice ~.~!!

patrick the starfish ^^ so stupid.. i tag tis pic to my bf, bcoz he watch dragonball to kenakan him XP then he say looks like me ==!! jus bcoz the patrick is a starfish = star shape= my name = one star == LOL

so tis is like two star? XD

the slide in the snowalk ^^see the circle place until the bottom. very bumpy ride ~.~ butt pain XD

my small n cute little grasshopper. i rear it for 2 months... for my biology display experiment == stupid useless n cruel experiment!!! everyday i gv food for it.. clean the container..

now is tis big XD soooooooooooooooo scary ~.~ total change skin is 4 times @.@ then few days back tot wanna kill it jor, bcoz very big le..so plan nt to give any food. but i feel so guilty!! go to slp n dun care my grasshopper hungry n die DX i really kenot do it ~.~ so ended up i give food back..then i decided to let it go ~.~ but i feel very very relieve after tat X) i dint give name to it.. but i stil bu seh de kill it leh T^T haih.... how to find 16 more insect?!! arggghhhhhhhhhh.. stress.. sumore tis year kill mice.. so cute like hamster.. how to kill T.T haihhhhhhhh

blue =D

skol started. cut my nails o.O so sayang ~.~ n after few days only i broke down again..damn stress n lonely at class.. haih.. hope i can tahan.. 1 year only ma! only.... please everything wil be ok.. please my math teacher dun be so so sarcastic to me!! i more hate math bcoz of her.. every her period so so stress.. haih... i tot be a teacher is to teach? cant her be more patient.. haih....i love my muet teacher, care about me alot ^^ tat time my eyes watery to tell her tat i hate form 6, then her eyes also teary d!! OMG. then i faster act happy back ~.~ so scary XD

thanks on first day, jeniffer n hueyleen came help me arrange tables ^^ but then get to sit behind bcoz they enter their class late ~.~ feel damn guilty but lucky change to infront le X) both of u must gambateh a! dun sms or slp in class XP

hopefully everything wil be ok.. i dun expect good result anymore.. as long as pass n get to enter uni is enuf ~.~ stpm really superb tough.. hope me n my bf wil get same uni.. duwan separate.. so suffering...! ok la, chinese new year bout to come! food XD yay~~

happy new year~!

2012-01-01T03:12:00.000-08:00

happy new year of 2012!! omg.. so fast leh ~.~ one year like tat gone.. feel so old..! 19 yearsold liao ~.~ but today, laogong jus 18 ^^ happy birthday to him!!! XD

went to icity with my sis n her frens ^^ go play snowalk..damn freaking cold!!! but the light was nice ^^ n i pokai inside about 3 times -.- so embarrasing! then play slide also~ so scary~

then jus play other games there ^^ lazy wan upload pic leh ~.~

but i buy many food at there ~.~ yummy! n damn many ppl ~.~

then at night go eat nandos, then countdown at Papparich only. but ofcourse i go out from the shop n called him, wish him happy birthday ^^ i try my best to find personal place to talk, to spent time with him..

n his dad ask whether wan go find me, bring go eat onot.. but i say duwan coz very far n troublesome.. then quite hurt when u say tat i duwan see u =( i know u r sad, but at the same time, i trying my best n make u easier.. but after tat he understand n stil gt alot of coming bday to celebrate ryte ^^

i'm the first to wish him happy birthday! eventho i earlier bcoz my watch not correct ~.~ i send DIY msg for him n video^^ n he opened my card n present le ^^ so happy ^^

reach home at 1am, then chatted until 3am. jus now video cal.. haih.. miss him so much.. feel so guilty make him miss me too.. cant be by his side when his bday.. but he should know my heart always there for him =)

happy new year my frens!!! may tis year better than previous year in everyway!

n sorry jasmin, i wished u wrongly ~.~ i say happy birthday instead -.- LOL

love

2011-12-28T01:35:00.000-08:00

love.. sometimes make me so confused.. so worry n scare.. no confident how our future wil be.. mayb due to past scar? of course i trust u, i always serious is love.. but really scare to hurt all over again.. breaking up is like the whole world had blackout..

i still rmb the feeling, how i cried and cant slp every night, half way sleeping then wakeup every hour bcoz heart too pain.. nightmares.. no appetite to eat.. to talk.. force a smile.. hopeless to live.. the feeling is awful.. i duwan tat to happen again.. im too weak to handle again.. without my fren help, i guess i wil........

but i risking myself to in love again... am i stupid? naive? desperate? i follow my feelings.. but now i try to bring my brain along so wont be so hurt.. trying to control my unconditional love for u.. but the more i control myself, the more i scare of losing u..

the more i want u, the more i scare how to survive without u. trying to appreciate u everyday bcoz we dunno wats gonna happen tmw.. but wat if u leave tis earth earlier? wat am i suppose to do?

i'm weak.. no confident.. perhaps the trauma stil there.. but still, i wil stil loving u.

i'm lucky to meet Laang Shian Hoong. we both had feelings during petroscience trip. which is quite hard for both ppl to love each other on first place.. which is why i feel lucky, n appreciate to have u more =) lucky to be ur first crush n first love, dun worry, i wil love u like never love or hurt b4. i wil make our story a beauty n eternal love.

christmas

2011-12-26T19:26:00.000-08:00

he is my doctor =) 'medicine' that he give, next year after stpm going to NS.. cant cal n sms at there T^T so he done tis for me T^T each day open one.. but my hand so itchy to open DX

i love him, him him and him ^^

christmas eve went to sunway with my sis fren, sis n him~ we exchange our birthday gifts.. nt sure next year dunno can meet onot.. T.T

1314= his bday 1/1 and my bday 3/4 ^^ 520=iloveyou!

i bought tis ^^necklace ring^^ nice! sumore jus rm 7 for both. cheap~~

his present ^^his bday on 1st January ^^ so special~ but so pity sometimes ppl jus wish him happy new year, nt happy birthday XD but at least the whole world 'countdown' for his bday XP feel damn guilty cant accompany him for first bday celebration.. going Icity with my sis n her frens countdownT.T

at least i make card for him to openXD

at sunway, we went to sing k X) he sing like a mosquito @.@ hehe. then we rushed to tapao mcdonald n bring to cinema eat XD watched alvin n the chipmunk. so disappointed! the trailer looks so nice n funny, but for me is quite boring DX 1st n 2nd wan alot better ~.~

then we jus walk n chat until 5pm.. then i accompany him to bus stop to go back T.T he help me hold my bag.. then when the bus came, he almost enter the bus tat time suddenly cal me STUPID PIG, ur bag! LOL... i forgotten XD but he cal me like tat..! hmph! he also la, holding also dint realize ~.~

but once he enter the bus ed, i quickly turn away.. no courage to watch him go.. haihhhhhhhhhhh.. 1 year only maaa....only =.= so suffer!!

then i go find my sis.. waa.. i at sunway from 10am to 11pm.. OMG.. damn tiring ~.~

then the next day go summit.. cant feel my leg ~.~

hoho, my nail~ haven cut for 1month+

my stupid insect collection..== yucks! i need 18 more insects ~.~

last week of holiday! die.. stil gt folio n experiment haven done! math also!. die die die ~.~

hmm?

2011-12-21T21:59:00.000-08:00

u dont hurt me, i never hurt u. i care for frens feeling, i trying my best not to offend anyone bcoz i know words sometimes are sharper than knife.. but did u?

it is my problem.. but why is like for first time, my issue seems like so matter for u? mayb u dun realize, but in a way, it do hurts me as a fren.. were u that caring?? i doubt that.. few incidents really hurts n leave deep scar! if u do care, y dint u ever ask me how am i when i break up previously? u dint ask anything at all. but now, i'm in a relationship seems like bothering u.. i dunno.. maybe my instinct wrong.. haihhh

anyway today is my childhood fren birthday! happy birthday to her X) n today also is dong zhi festival!! ytd talk with him, n i dunno what the festival call ~.~ but i know the food is cal 'tang yuan' ^^ so i say 'tang yuan kuai le' XD then he say 'lao po kuai le' XD LOL

skol day getting nearer.. which means we cant talk much anymore =( T^T

need do tang yuan le~ yummy!!! bb ~

holiday

2011-12-19T22:07:00.000-08:00

these holidays sucks ~.~ never even mention whether i miss school onot.. alone again at class whole day.. i dun even really have holiday.. ya, perhaps i'm a slacker ~.~ but my 1+ month holiday, i jus keep doing my homework! never ending homework eventho is holiday.. damn sucks! how to enjoy T.T

i already done my 7insects experiment.. n i left wit 18 more insects to collect.. wth.. plants ed collected, jus haven print the info.. folio is on the way.. damn ecology folio.. 4 ppl in a group n i doing it all by myself.. haih..... stress!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

math? i done past years questions, but text book i dint touch.. my dear Pn selva sure wil disappointed =( my math 2? i sure wiil complete her work lo.. i so scare her X.X

but really stress.. my result sucks like hell.. now struggling with experiment, folio n homework, dun even have time to do revision.. mayb i jus not studying type ~.~ i study max 3hours only.. i duno why some of my friends so eager to study, to gain more knowledge, sad when nothing to study, but me, lazying around n think is not my business to study.. so pathetic me T^T

but at least, i gt my 'wolf' accompany me next year.. knowing u care about me, i wil feel strong to go school study =) haih.. miss him so much.. what i do to make u here.. =( burn ur puchong physic class wil do :D mwahahah

now only i realize how lucky am i in high school.. miss my 7chinese gang =( miss our koko time especially.. stay back every evening for paint class or sports is the best memory T^T miss them so much.. i hate ALONE... haih.. gambateh ba ~

my eyes~

2011-12-11T23:40:00.000-08:00

recently my eyes out of nowhere grow pimple in my eyes ~.~ damn pain a.. n swallon sumore.. until now haven fully heal

so ugly~~

yierrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr~~

dint thought to see doctor, bcoz jus a small thing n duwan waste my dad money.. plus scare if need apply cream medicine in my eyes!! hate doctor... after 1week + haven recover, i told my mom, mana tau she go tel my dad == immediately he brought me go see doc T^T haih... so expensive.. really caring my daddy =)

i saw tis quote at my fren's room... i hate ppl who can so easily stop loving a person especially guys!!! selfish...! i know love cant be force, but a damn gud fren of mine, bcoz of a selfish act of his, breaks her heart to pieces...! where is all the promises vanish? where is ur forever? if is so easy to fall in n out of love, then 'marriage' word shouldn't exist to tie both together... serious dun understand...

if u r matured enuf, please love her more than she love u.. tat is wat a gentleman is.. love isn't complicated, human it is... why when u first couple can be so lovey dovey, but as the time passes, u change?? we dont hurt bcoz human change, we hurt bcoz of wat u used to be... hope my dear fren recover.. it takes time...

my neighbour cat missing!!! T^T i think the owner bring to other place.. so sad!!!!!!!!!!! almost 3 weeks le T.T damn miss DX

today is Jeniffer birthday ^^ hope she have a blast~ ^^

today he back from malacca with his family ^^ yay~~!!!!!! miss him so much T^T ytd he gave his fb password to me, to be honest of everything.. i look his privacy n indeed i get very hurt n jealous =( but to think about his pass, is jus sweet talk, not ask for couple or anything.. compare to mine even more hurt him tho... but ya.. he said the past is not important anymore, jus the present =)

i understand now n learn to be more open minded.. bear in mind, nobody is perfect ^^ thanks for always stay by myside ^^

thanks to Emelia, she always give me many useful advises! my saver X)

no title~

2011-11-28T22:56:00.000-08:00

long time no update le..very lazy XP lets start on 23 nov, which was last wednesday.. went to sunway n meet him ^^ can consider as our first outing ^^ ofcoz i can feel the butterfly in my stomach~.~ so happy anxious to meet him X)

n i know we probably wont meet again until finish stpm due to inconvenience..one year to tahan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cry........ hopefully one day he can drive to find me =( miss him so much... serious miss him alot T.T hope we both can make through tis obstacle.. =`(

we watch tis movie - you are the apple of my eyes ^^ damn bien tai n funny XD but very romantic n sweet!! but i hate the ending!!! stupid sad ending!! stupid!! both like each other but at last the girl married with another guy T^T but the hero got say, if really someone, the most important thing is as long as she happy T^T but if she happy, but he is not ma T^T but tats true love tho =(

ppl go cinema watch movie, but he keep stare at me n kacau me ~.~ zha dao XD but he is superb cute ^^ every second with u i wil treasure it ^^

he give me ^^ so nice he know i damn love puppy X)

i make stars for his muet test ^^

tadaaa~!! fatty pig also wil cry bcoz of tis XP i wil love him all i can X)

dunno why i'm obsess with nail polish already XD my fav colour-pink n purple ^^

meanwhile, ytd went to one utama with my family ^^ so so so long dint go out with them shopping eversince my sister work until now T^T but ya ytd went out, yay!

nice deco!! looks like moon ryte up there ^^

ugly me~.~
love my sister~~~ X)

is tis related with christmas @.@? but nice tho ^^

i bought de Voir shoe^^

then after kaikai we went to ss 2 pasar malam.. n bought alot of FOOD.. literally ALOT ~.~ omg.. sure fat lo DX eat damn many fried stuff leh.. non stop eating!! die lo~~

puss in boots!!! watch with my sis at summit last sunday ^^ damn awesome!!! must watch!!! keep laughing thoughout the movie XD n the storyline is unpredictable X) puss is so leng zai n cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHA

here are some pic of my neighbour cat ^^ perasan wit the umbrella XD

ants? O.O
under my umbrella, ella ella eh eh~ XD

so cute laaa ^^

after badminton took de pic ^^ tis mangkuk chien force me wake up early morning play badminton n jogging with her.. i prefer evening DX i wan slp til afternoon de leh T.T

but we talk alot lo XD hahaha.. then while walking found tis superb big ant!!! n hor some of the ants above wil carry alot of other smaller ants on top XD is like mutualism XD haha

currently do homework until very sien n rmb tat i got this puzzle from petroscience last time ^^ addicted to it =O

3 layer de sky ^^ black cloud, white cloud n no cloud amazing leh~

see, i catch de grasshopper XD cute ryte? i decided to rear it since i dunno where to catch a big one for my insect collection ~.~ so cruel lo me!! i scare i gt feelings to it n bu seh de to kill it leh T^T lol..
die jor? XD no la, jus it undergoes ecdysis ~.~ shocked ~.~ so geli!! DX

k la, gtg~ bb ^^

holiday le~

2011-11-17T00:48:00.000-08:00

hmm.. last friday 11/11/2011, went to sunway with huchien, her bf n giam. first time i eat waffle til the choc drip to my shirt! then chien help me watch at toilet..! LOL.. so malu ~.~ then we watch In Time =D the movie seriously damn awesome!!!!!!!! there's a time living indicate in ur hand, n u need to get the time by stealing other's ppl time ~.~ n it also means tat the more time u have, the richer u are~ very touching n romantic also.. T^T must watch!

then finish watch, my stupid phone keep auto shutdown!! grr..! then when i sms half way n look infront, i saw....!!!!! i damn shocked! i tot i saw wrong ppl sumore!! hahah. then we looking each other n pass by only T.T then walk n walk, saw him again X) then we talk n go play arcade awhile.. we play racing car.. i from number 1, then he bang me, make me get last DX hmpph.. bully me X(

tis doll.. is a tortoise, tot wanna buy for my fren, but dint expect to see him so jus gave him =X

then we jus talk.. so paiseh.. i dun really dare look at his face sumore ~.~ very bu seh de when wanna back.. but very happy to meet u ^^ sumore laugh with u ^^ haih..duno need to wait til when sumore can meet.. sad...! its hard.. but if the love is strong n is true love, everything wil become easy, as long as we trust each other XP hehe. i grow much stronger n mature now i realize o.O good ryte XD

then last tuesday, celebrated Jeniffer's bday XD we lied to her say is hueyleen farewell party bcoz she wan shift to college d XP haha~ so hard to lie! she told me wanna make card n video for leen ~.~ so i jus say no need bcoz she go on february intake, dun need so fast do ~.~ heheh, then we go toilet take pic d, then when she come out, we all sing bday song for her ^^ yay~ my suprise plan success ^^

fruit cake ^^ happy~~~ X))

then we straight go shanmuha open house^^ until 10pm like tat ^^ have alot of funny n memorable moment! love u all~!

i bought de nail polish ^^ i mix both XD

now skol holiday ed X) but i stil hv to go skol if my bio teacher call T.T damn.. at skol she busy sms.. n dint enter class... now cal me purposely come skol alone to do experiment! haih... sumore say if i understand how to do, jus me n lab assistant there can le..! wat the... hope chien can teman me T^T

tis holiday i no time to work.. i gt bio folio.. experiment, math 4 chapters homeworks, math past year question, english 6 essay! omg.. really wanna die.. i hope i can catch up... my result sucks.. =`( anyway, making something for his Muet test tis saturday ^^ hope can help him =)

stpm T.T

2011-11-10T09:54:00.000-08:00

i dunno how to say.. my feelings so complicated.. eventho we dunno much about each other, but we both have so so so much common thoughts and stuff from the first time i meet u.. u make me feel so warm n happy.. why we dunno much about one another but stil the feeling is so real, as if u always beside me..

so far yet so close.. so simple yet so complicated.. but I Am Lucky tO haVe a friEnd like U ^^

stpm barriers.. we jus face the challenge ~.~ i know u wil n i wil for u =) eventho stil gt 1 year+ !! huhu.. 1 year leh.. but compare to forever, 1 year wil be the test.. but yeah, nobody ever make me feel like tis... heart to heart.. as u say, study first! stpm sapsapwater! XD (fiy, my cgpa FAIL. yes fail my dear T^T damn ~.~)

gambateh studying everyone ^^

friends~

2011-10-25T05:55:00.001-07:00

learn from ytd, live for today, hope for tomorrow ^^ is ok if we do mistake, everyone is nt perfect ryte?but as long as we learn from the past n mistake wil make our life more better ;D i promise u, we together change to better k^^

ytd went to sunway with form 6 gang, jen, huey leen, twins, ann, alicia n fiona ^^ very fun to meet u guys! i dunno why, but seriously feel so warm n like a family with them ^^

actually the day b4 got abit fight with jen XD but i decided nt to ruin our first time outing together with the rest. so i jus ok back with her, but i see her very cool when we meet.. like duwan to choi me T.T but i dunno why i read her blog jus now she say i the one who care less about her XD haha XD mayb i dint ask her much thing bcoz i try to control myself nt to be so busybody like aunty~.~ huhu

but then me, jen n leen sing karaoke release our stress, scream n sing many songs with feelings jus like inside the lyric XP the others go watch movie, The Thing. then as time pass by, we jus talk n laugh like normal ^^ eventho at first gt abit shyshy XD

n then i realise i get back like a aunty when talk with jen XP i stil care for her ~.~ XD chin yi xuan, i wil always care for u no matter wat, so any problem rmb to call HAM DAN CHIU YAN n i wil fly to u xD

n im so so so sry i dint ask u why u wan to smoke T^T i seriously stupid!!!!!! i dint ask for ur explaination also.. perhaps i jus too emo tat time due to my pass relationship... really sorry..

nice cushion XP

anyway, ur apology, i from the very early already forgive u. i dun even need u to say sorry to me, but as long as u stil talk to me, is more than i wish ^^ i cant imagine without u or be a stranger with u! if at skol i cant be crazy n at badminton court cant play with u, i think tat wil make me crazy instead ~.~

i am selfish too.. i dunno why when jen told me she suddenly bu seh de alicia, or others, i feel abit jealous ~.~ i not lesbian ryte??! haha XD i have to admit, i have a best friend since im standart 1 til now.. but i realize tat as long is best fren with u all, my love is the same..

so sry if i hurt u by saying u nt mature ~.~ paiseh T^T i really appreciate u to always accompany me n make me happy when im sad ^^ mayb u dunno tat i know ;D but seriously THANK YOU. so, pls dun cry bcoz of me or i wil feel guilty T^T next time anything, promise to tell me straight!no more secrets!!!!!!!!!

i feel kinda sad when u sms hueyleen but dint sms me at sunway.. n also u both secretly sms when at Popeye.. but again, i try to control my aunty-ness XD n u told ann n leen u go airport first also i dint know anything ~.~!! T^T

u dint make me annoying, jus i make u annoying la~ u always hear my boring stories n problems.. thanks!! i never leave u alone, i stil need u to be my hamdanchiuyan XD

i never ever once wanna leave u darling ^^ always rmb u r not alone! feel free to cal me if u miss me XP dun think so much anymore, u always tel me got any prob jus say, but u urself also duwan tel me T^T hmphh. not fair! jus hope u dun think much n dun be too naughty can le XD rmb u r forever my muimui!!

huey leen, u also a very very caring fren ^^ thanks for listening my prob =D n thanks for comforting me with ur long n sweet msg ^^ really appreciate tat XD hope u happy always!! ^^ friends forever!!

crap!!!

2011-10-23T04:16:00.000-07:00

im literally crying now.. im nt angry.. im jus hurt.. im tired.. im fucking hell tired of being someone tat nobody appreciate n understands me... tired to worry, care n love... after everything tat i do, i tried my best to treat u like a good friend.. i wan u to know tat i be fren with u nt bcoz of u good in study or pretty, but jus the way u r.. i stil exist to be ur true fren!

i willing to accompany u buy food, willing to wait for u bertugas, sometimes i did hurt u with my words, i did left u out, i realize tat, but u know i never leave u if u need me.. there was once at graduation day, u hurt me twice.. mayb u dun realize tat, but i dun like when i talk with u, u say u duwan talk to me.. n when i answer ur question u jus say u r not asking me.. yes u r joking but tats nt bcoz i angry but bcoz im hurt..

n when i was looking for u to ask bout the registration thing, u jus replied u dunno and walked off to take ur pic.. u leave me alone to responsible for it.. but i dun mind much since is my fault.. but i jus hope u to teman me to solve together.. ytd when chatting wit u n gang, u say u b4 7am reach sunway, i'm worry for ur safety.. ann say i wanna be hero or im annoying.. n mayb he joking too, but its hurt.. but i also try to calm down n relax.. i jus duwan anything bad happen to u.. i tot im ur friend..

u, always come to my class when recess time, when assembly.. when fiona bday u stil rmb to bring cake for me... u ask pn norbayah whether can change to bio class onot.. u give me ham dan keychain.. send me funny sms n mms.. call me to gambateh at class.. i feel so lucky.. so happy to have u.. at least im alone at class dont meant i alone at form 6..

but today, i read ur wall.. i was so speechless.. u wrote u have no one accompany u to ponteng.. u miss ur gang.. n others... why u need them in ur life??? the one tat dint appreciate u, teach u do bad thing.. the one tat dun celebrate ur bday.. did i have a little space in ur heart? u know.. i planned ur bday suprise already.. im so disappointed.. how could u do tis to me?? u say i stil gt other frens, but how bout u??? u push ur responsibilty to them? u duwan to be my fren anymore? its hurts when i love u as my fren so much...

but then i realize im not u.. i cant cal u to do anything i wan.. but please, think for ur own good n safety.. think about ur future..

smkam2 chinese society kpop dance

2011-10-21T12:16:00.000-07:00

Korea Mix Dance - Star Dance 58

2011-10-21T12:14:00.000-07:00

imma back XD

2011-10-21T11:30:00.000-07:00

wow.. my blog so long dint update ~.~ lemme see, the important thing happen last few weeks ago was i went to perlis,kedah n penang for 3days XD bcoz my sis convocation n for vacation with family ^^

doing my math homework while on the way~.~

it was great to witness my sis graduate T^T so touched.. when i was form 2, damn bu seh de her live at kedah.. so lonely at home n nobody help house chores d XD now she ed 4 years n graduated.. congrats!!!!!!!!!! but i feel abit kesian for them tho XD work n study so long for tat piece of graduation cert ~.~ hahah.. but ofcoz need it for working ^^

one day i wil be like her!!! i can see my dad very proud of sis T^T huhuhuh.. i hope i can survive tis stpm first -.-

take pic around my sis Uni -UUM~

went to bukit bendere n kek lok si ^^

bird park inside bukit bendera XD realise tat the head is tilt 180degree behind XD damn cute XD

tis bird my sis n me sayang the head til it upide down XD very manja X)hehehe

stay at tis hotel =)

then last friday went to club golf shah alam for form 6 graduation ^^ me n yixuan responsible for pendaftaran ^^

me, xuan n leen ^^
my form6 bestie~! love tis hamdan so much!!! xp

our ketua pengawas XD

star dance 58 group! ^^miss our practice n crazy time together T^T

the food not nice lo ~.~!! sumore gt mosquito inside the drink n dessert == yucks~~ then going back d, at outside i change to sport shoe XD leg blister coz the shoe quite tight T.T huhu. but overall it was fun n memorable ^^

then last 2 days ago,went to petroscience youth camp klcc for form 6 students XD science stream from selangor, around 83 students ^^ we stayed there 3days 2 night inside the petroscience XD awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeee! eventho i tot stay at hotel at first T.T hahah~ but we jus set our tent n sleep beside this DINOSOUR ~.~

damn noisy leh.. at night wan sleep also hard, stupid dinosour keep make noise 'wrrooooaoaaammmmmmmmmm~~~' waalao~.~ haha.. but apparently i dint dream of dinosour so 'kua cheong' la Joce ^^ haha

then tis 3 guys above is our new close fren from puchong^^ they very friendly n funny XD one of them also bien tai like me XD hahaha. tat time was doing group experiment using bread, mayonaise, tuna, cheese n salad to make sandwich. but actually each ingredient tat we put resemble the layer of ground ^^

then tat guy put so many mayonaise between the breads ~.~!! damn fattening n after we done, the facilitator cal us to eat XD my god...6 meals per day, sumore add tis sandwich at 10pm ~.~!! so fat DX then he talk wit his fren is high concentration n keep laughing there -.- then i know he talking about hamsap stuff d XD

my group-physicist X) n receive free gift ^^

we went to malacca on second day at malacca refinery oil near the ocean~~ damn big! awesome! XD like robots~ next time after facilitator upload pic d only post more ^^ we sumore got watch science experiment which really looks like magic!! next time only tel together with pic ^^

sumore gt play water war XD all chase here n there! damn funny n happy time XD then the last day, everyone also bu seh de to go back T^T but bak kata pepatah melayu, setiap perjumpaan pasti ada perpisahan T^T huhu~

n friendship sometimes jus fake for me.. i get lesson tat i wont treat frens tat gud if they ownself selfish for themselves n hurt my feelings! simply leave when i have prob, n twist the case the other way round.. wat the..

plus a fren tat i tot was kind also betray me behind my back. yes i dont have the right but use ur common sense, it wil hurt my feeling ok? sucks... frens is alot, but true fren is jus afew n at least i have some tat really care about me..

really agree with tis statement = Don't trust too much,don't love too much,don't hope too much because this too much..can hurt you so much!

i saw tis 2 ants kissing XD then i separate them XP so bad ryte.. hehe

my neighbour cat ^^ die d coz eat too much sleeping pill XP

ham dan chiu yan fly~~~ XD the armpit hair cool ryte XD heheh~ i put flower seeds while he sleeping XP

i realise tat my post b4 tis was abit exaggerate ~.~ i jus like the attention n care tat ppl give me, n i dun really "love" him. hormone imbalance XP after back from petroscience, i gain back my confidence X) we cant control our heart, but its nt an offense tho ^^ jus keep it low to ourselves.. pray we can enter UM together eventho the probability like so low.. UM so hard ~.~ but jus hope ^^

finish my exam ytd..n 100%fail math, chemis n bio T^T must jia you tis holiday!!! anyway, the previous post is me n my frens performance ^^ one is during form 5 n one more is form 6 ^^ but quite terrible.. no energy XD now is 4.05 am ~.~should sleep d ~.~ gud nite~